Life has been busy. This time of year always seems to be. Lots going on which is great, but I’m trying not to over do it either.
I worked my side job last weekend. Which it had been raining on off for like 2 weeks. That’s getting old! Will got back from his work trip & we had a great dinner Sunday night (date #2). It was a really nice way to wrap up the weekend.
Monday I played cornhole, but Tuesday it got rained out. Impromptu dinner with friends which I invited Will also. I figured he’s seen me dressed up nice twice so this was casual jeans stuffing down wings. 🤣 He wasn’t fazed at all which was nice to see. I am enjoying hanging out & slowly getting to know him. He went out of town again for a few days & now his mom is here visiting until next week. I told him if he needs a break he knows how to find me. 😉
I had therapy last week. I do enjoy meeting with her. I know I’ve made a lot of improvements since last summer, but sometimes all I see is that hot mess still. She keeps it in perspective & we talk out things. Between the gym & a bday party I had a FULL week! Definitely going low key this weekend.
Last night had a concert with the girls which was a blast!! Then we headed next door to the casino for a bit. I don’t play but it’s fun to hang & watch. Today I’ve been running errands which FL summer had kicked in. It’s hot! I really wish I could get some beach time. Perhaps tomorrow? I sent my dad his Father’s Day stuff this week so I’ll give him a call.
I leave next Monday for Canada for 2 weeks so I’ve been getting things organized for that. I’m trying not to leave it til the last minute to get ready, but you know in some way it always ends up that way. Even work I’ve been trying to get ready so it’s not a complete mess this week or when I return.
Tonight is a life celebration for a friend’s family member. But it’s at a bar & then the beach for sunset. Not sure what to expect. Maybe the bar is a good idea?
I feel like I am getting back in the game again.
First my weight is at 168 lbs. Yay me! It’s been holding there for the past week which I think is a good sign. Obviously I’m still reaching for my goal of 160, but this is definitely signs of encouragement for me. Keep staying active & really think about what I eat!!
Next off…my dating life. It’s gotten a bit of a revival recently. Online dating is a necessary evil I feel to just try to meet more people. Where else can one go? As much as I do & try to spread my social circle it seems to be with a lot of people already in relationships. I have basically been using 2 sites (Tinder & Bumble) to find matches. Thanks to Tinder this week I have 2 meet ups.
#1 was last night after my cornhole league was over he stopped by the bar for a drink. His name is Mark. We had a very nice 2 hours of chatting & hanging out. I liked him & would like to get to know him more, but there are some obstacles. He works a goofy schedule (commercial pilot) which I totally understand & he also has 4 daughters ranging from 9-12 yo (a set of twins in there). So he’s pretty busy! Plus his divorce has only been officially final for a month so even though it’s been over, it’s now freshly over you know? He admits he’s just trying to get back out there & attempt having a social life with his job/kids which I appreciate his honesty. But here’s my deal…I know what I bring to the table. I don’t want you to be with me cause I’m the 1st girl you dated after divorce or cause you had a few weird encounters online & you think I’m really normal (yeah he said that lol). I want somebody who recognizes what a catch I am, WANTS to be with me & treats me accordingly. So go out there & date some other women so you can appreciate what I have to offer (sane, employed & financially responsible for starters which many woman down here aren’t!). He said he’d like to meet again which I said sure & to stay in touch with our schedules! So we’ll see….
#2 is happening tonight. Meeting for drinks. William is closer to my age. Grew up in the Midwest also. We have texted some, but I don’t know a whole lot about him so I am curious. Looking forward to it! Then I need to make an appearance at my other cornhole league which is having an opener meet & greet tonight. Honestly I just didn’t feel like hanging out with Joe & his partner Katie (shitty girl in previous posts) for a whole evening. It makes for an awkward time (watching her hang on the married guy is weird) & I have better things to do & people to hang out with. William is going on a work trip for 2 weeks & this was our only chance to meet before. Plus I’m crazy…remember? hahaha!!!
**only 2 more days til my birthday. Gosh that 40 is getting closer….
Since I defurnished my house, started trying to rent it, went on Craigslist for new housing & moved. Wow. It’s gone fast. And it feels like a lot has happened. I’ve moved another time since. I’ve learned a lot about who I am. I’ve put weight back on. I’ve been on & off the meds. I’ve made a new social circle(s) of friends. I’ve joined a gym (and actually like it!). I’m in therapy. I’m learning how to handle life & what I can control. I’ve learned to cut out people who aren’t beneficial to have around. I’ve done some traveling. I have actually been saving money. I’m recognizing when to have “me” time and why it’s important. I’m attempting to date again. I’m trying new things. I’m putting myself out there even if I might fail.
I guess that is a lot I’ve done the last year! Still a work in progress. Still growing. Which is good cause one should never stop.
Here’s to more good times & having faith in the rough times that it won’t last forever! 🥂
Well I’ve been holding at 170 since right after the weigh in last week. Argh…how can I break that barrier into the 160s & stay there?? Feeling frustrated.
I was better about my food amounts & choices last week. I realized after a few days of eating out (mandatory work lunches) to reel it back in which I did.
I did get a compliment on Saturday from a group of girls that they “wished our abs looked anywhere like yours”. Very nice to hear but I’m still not happy cause I know they’ve been better. It will inspire me to try harder at the gym too since we are in full swim season now (hello 90s)!
This week still trying to log my steps (man I have been BAAAD about reaching those goals!), food control & at the gym putting some weight on the bar. Yup, that’s my May gym goal to actually put weights on the bar when we use it (I only lift the bar by itself). My trainer of course is delighted I’m showing some initiative. 😂
Also I need to write here more. So much fun good stuff has been happening that I haven’t been sharing!
172 lbs 😞 I didn’t get a picture this morning cause running behind but I saw the scale numbers. Blah!!
I know this weekend was rough & having to weigh in first thing Monday morning sucks. I ate probably close to what I ate all last week in 2.5 days. AND I JUST DIDN’T CARE. Yup that’s how life has been for me lately & I know that’s not a good attitude to have so I’m trying to turn it around. Plus my sleep pattern is still wacky so I need to work on that.
This week’s goals are get back on the right track food wise & work on my sleep pattern. That will be a good start.
I lost the battle but the war is not yet over!!
😵😵😵 yeah that’s not really something one needs to see at 7:20 am!
Little backstory…so this guy contacts me thru Facebook messenger awhile ago cause he had been following my Instagram. Apparently he’s interested in me so we chat a little but he’s much younger than me (like 10 years) so I say I’m not interested. But he seemed like an ok guy & I know a few single ladies his age so then I’m thinking maybe I’ll meet him to match them up? A good deed right? He makes some odd douchebag comments then & game over I’m out. He claims it’s a misunderstanding cause he’s English and the meaning of things or the way he phrases things. No I understood fine. Douchebag is a universal language & I’m not introducing you to any of my girls. Since then he’ll randomly send me FB messages which I just delete. Until this morning.
In all honesty I answered his message with the intent of saying I’m not interested and please stop contacting me, but he immediately started on with how he still wants to meet me yet he feels that I’m seeing someone. I was driving to work so I couldn’t respond but in my head I’m getting ticked like wtf crazy creeper and start composing my mental message of telling him to go fly a kite for when I can reply. BUT before I can even get that far here it comes. The unsolicited out of no where dick pic. WTF 😱 Why would anyone send a picture of their junk (or maybe it’s not his but still the intent is there) to somebody they don’t know & want to go out with?!?!?! I didn’t think guys really did that but apparently I was wrong! WHY??? I can’t get past that part. He then wanted my opinion so here was my response:He wasn’t happy that I wasn’t impressed & begging for more I guess cause he had a few more comments. But that was my final response. If he contacts me again I’ll have to figure out how to block. Seriously. What a frigging weirdo creeper!!!
Don’t get me wrong. If you are in a relationship with somebody and it’s mutual there is nothing wrong with sending some fun sexy photos. Whatever works right?! But if you’re going to send a girl you want to meet in person pictures, please let it be something cute. A kitten. 😺 The sunset. ⛅️ A palm tree. 🌴 NOT YOUR DICK. That is NOT cute.
And all my coworkers agree with me. Thanks for making our morning though. 😂
Woo hoo it went down!!! 🎉
I got more steps this week in. Not as much as I hoped for but it was an increase. Really made an effort to watch how much I ate (portion control) even if it was better stuff. I got 3 trips in to the gym (gotta make up visits from vacay earlier this month) & a bridge walk with the girls.
On Sunday my ankle felt a little funny. Not sure if doing more or cause I slept on it funny so I laid low to rest for this week. But a day off isn’t bad. Just had to make sure I didn’t boredom eat!
It’s kind of good knowing I weigh in first thing Monday not to spend my Sunday binging on food. It is making me more accountable and pay attention.
This week I’m just going to keep on doing what I’ve been doing & see where it goes!! Stay motivated!