It’s been a good weekend. Friday night was kickball which went great! My team played Joe’s team & we beat them. Plus he never made it to 1st base. That was pretty sweet! I’m hoping the less fun he has perhaps the sooner he’ll go away. But it was a very fun night overall. I played the 2nd game for another team which went well. I’m feeling pretty strong and am playing consistently. Afterwards people went out for food & drinks so it’s nice to meet new people and hang out.
Saturday I was determined to get to the beach since last weekend was a total bust sun wise. I met my friend Jess & her daughter so we had a girls day. Sun, sand, waves, making sandcastles, laughing….so much fun!! Saturday night was a friend’s birthday party. We met for dinner and then did an escape room place afterwards. I’ve done one previously with work, but nobody else had. It was fun! Little frustrating especially in the beginning cause we couldn’t get past the first puzzle but we eventually got there with some hints. I find those puzzles or clues I either “see” it right away or I never will. We were able to solve it in time barely which was a miracle! And everyone left still speaking to each other!! 😂
Today I’ve been a bum. I was hoping to get some more beach time, but they were saying rain showers all day which it did. So I slept some, watched tv, read. Yup I’ve been reading this book. And it’s working!! 😲 No shit it really is. I mean I’m not taking it as the gospel, but skimming thru & reading parts really has made me think how I do things or have in the past. So I’ve tried a few times doing what the Rules suggest. And it worked! I’m going to keep trying it & see how it goes. What do I have to lose??
Ahhh…made it thru the week. 😜 Which was soooo long it seemed. Granted I started off with a few late nights but it just felt like I couldn’t catch up. Work just drug out. A lot is happening there, but it’s staying under control. The gym I just can’t back into. My energy level is blah. I know my diet it crap and I’m feeling it! Changing my food around and trying to make better choices. I can’t get away from the sugar sweet junk though.
I was happy on Thursday night to get to talk to Will. He’s still out west for work a few more days before he flies to the Midwest to spend a week with his kids. Then he’s finally coming back here!! Yeah I’m a little excited. We had good conversation (seems like we always do) talking about everything & nothing. I am looking forward to actually getting to spend some time together and see where it goes. 😊
Kickball last night was awesome! Our team won, but I also made a HUGE play when we really needed it & I’m not gonna lie…it felt great!!! It’s such a good time with friends and hanging out.
This weekend is pretty laid back. I’m hoping to get some beach time today if the weather allows it. Want to do some reading as well. Have a friend’s going away party tonight. Not sure about tomorrow yet. Maybe a movie? See how it goes.
Happy weekend all!! Do what makes you happy 😁
Wowzers….it’s been a month. Sorry folks I am a bad blogger lately. Which is a shame cause I’ve had so much happen to share. So here’s some quick catch up which I’ll divide into 3 areas: before Canada, in Canada & back from Canada. 😊
So before I left in June for Canada I never did see Will again. I think his mom being here visiting and away from the kids for the 1st Father’s Day really got to him so the free weekend he did have (the one before I left) he went back to STL for kid time. Kind of a bummer cause I had tons of fun things happening he could have joined in on, but I also understood the need. On that note since we don’t have any commitment & have only hung out a few times I did have another guy ask me out so I went. We actually met at a mutual friend’s Memorial Day party & he asked her for my number (she asked me first). Met Mark for dinner on a week night cause I was days away from leaving. He seemed cool and we chatted awhile. I met him again for dinner the night before I left. Still unsure how I feel about him but I’m in no rush so left things with stay in touch the next few weeks.
Hung with friends at the beach and parties before I left. So much fun!! Glad to blow off some steam cause I knew the Canada trip was going to be hard work. Interesting side note…I got a friend request from a guy that turns out (yeah I do some checking before accepting) to be Joe the ex’s new roommate. Wtf??!! 😵 Initially I thought hell no deny that shit, but then I wondered what the game was so I waited. I spoke to this guy over 2 months ago once and to randomly send this now??? Like right after moving in with Joe? Hmmmm I did end up accepting the request but with setting restrictions so he can see only my public info. Have to see how this plays out. A few days later he followed me on other social medias that I do have public (I don’t post much personal info on those so enjoy 😂). Again it’s just weird.
Got my stuff packed and organized for Canada. Got my work organized as best I could for being out of the office over 2 weeks. The trip to Canada turned out to be nothing like the past 3 trips I’ve done previously. 16-18 hour days on your feet & oops oh you didn’t get lunch? I don’t mind hard work, but some appreciation and consideration is nice. I’ve also not been around CRAZY people in quite awhile. I stay away from that. I don’t work for that anymore. I’m not friends with that. And here I was unfortunately stuck in the middle of full on psycho crazy! Obviously next time I’ll be asking a lot more questions before I accept going on a trip like this again. I did get out of town for 2 weeks which in some ways was good. I could tell the drama was getting to me & I needed to break away. I got paid and that pays for the vacation I want to take next year so yay!!! I enjoyed Calgary again & would love to visit when I can do what I want and see the area. It really is an amazing place.
I got home last Monday. It took ALL day & 3 flights but I was back in my bed at 10:30pm. I slept a lot on the flights and on my layover in Dallas which helped. I’m just so body sore & my poor feet are a wreck. I figured it’ll take 2 weeks to recover and it looks like I’m right. I spent Tuesday running errands and catching up before returning to my real job Wednesday. And that actually hasn’t been as messy as one would have thought. Yay!! I did make it to the gym once and sort of muddled thru a workout of what didn’t hurt or was healing.
I had therapy appt last week. Which I felt pretty good! I could have probably used the visit before, but I sort of feel like a lot of my anxiety and stress is gone. Or I’m just so tired I don’t give a shit. 🤔 I told my therapist she would have loved the group I was with for 2 weeks and they made me feel VERY normal. We laughed a lot.
I spent this weekend low key. Kickball started up again so I had games Friday night and then I went out with my girl Jess. We had fun! Saturday I got some beach time in!!! Today I walked a little & ran some errands. Just being a bum and resting which feels good! I’ll get more on my routine this week which will be nice.
The view from our penthouse balcony. lol Can’t really complain about much when I keep having these blessed moments.
Day 1 of vacay yesterday was amazing. We got a lot done it seemed. The flight went well (thank you Spirit!), getting into Costa Rica was fine (thank you authorities!), the ride to the condo was fun (thank you Jose!), meeting the condo managers was like finding more family (thank you Stephanie & John!). We got settled in, had some dinner on the beach, strolled to town & back at the pool. It was an early evening but given the long day & 2 hour time change it didn’t matter.
Here we stopped at crocodile bridge on the way to Jaco from the airport. Holy crocodile everywhere!! I’m not sure why they gather & forgot to ask but there is a national park right there so it may be aren’t very endangered? But then you see this standing literally 100 yards upstream so you can’t blame the crocs for congregating by the dinner table. Luckily we didn’t witness any National Geographic moments! I mean get Mother Nature & the circle of life, but why be so close to danger?? And then locals throw chicken (dead, I asked first!) over the rail so they get a little rowdy so it’s a touristy spot.
Getting to the condo we met the managers who had “bad news”…the penthouse condo we had rented was having a few maintenance issues still being worked on. The “good news” was the other penthouse condo wasn’t rented out so they moved us next door to the bigger & even better views one (also more pricey) for the WHOLE trip!!! Yay for being blessed again with upgrades!! 🙏
We went to beachy bar place next door & had a great early dinner just chilling. Met some USA transplants & had a few drinks before getting some sand in our toes! Then we walked to town (a few minutes so very easy) to see what there was & grocery shop. That was fun! In another language & currency. I actually was a dork & had a good time between looking for things I can eat for the gym challenge (I’m not totally blowing that off cause I do feel better without eating all the processed crap foods) & checking my currency converter app to see what things cost. It was interesting! Really I’m not a nerd 🤓
Not sure what we’ll do today. I imagine beach & pool. The others don’t want any intense schedule or planned out events which is a little against my grain (especially for 6 days being here) but I’m willing to try. I don’t care as long as I don’t miss out doing things otherwise I’ll start planning my own shit to do. We do want to find some kind of excursion zip line ATV jungle thing for one day.
Because of the time change I was up at 5am but it gets light here by 6 which is nice change although it gets dark a little earlier than I thought it would (by 6pm). Guess I’ll see if the others are up yet! Day 2 here we go…
So true!!! What an overall great weekend. I really needed it too.
Friday started with the St Patrick’s Day celebration. Got my green on, met up with the group & we had a blast. Just kept hopping from bar & food places all night. So much fun to kick back & laugh! 🍀🌈
Saturday started with a trip to WalMart which never disappoints on the entertainment scale. Did you know there is more than 1 way to shave a rat? Apparently there is according to the cashier who was very frustrated with their computer not working. I wasn’t sure how to respond. 🤔 Then I went with my girlfriends & their daughters (total girl trip!) to see Beauty & the Beast. I thought it was good!!! On the way home texting my friend Zac about night plans & he asks me to go with to a wedding. Why not!?!? What girl doesn’t love to glam it up a little? It turned out to be at this absolutely beautiful place on the water all outside. The ceremony by the beach, the sunset with cocktails, dinner under lights & dancing by the stars. What an amazing event & evening! I love going to weddings (even if I don’t know anyone lol) cause it’s so wonderful to see all the love and be a part of people’s special day. 💕
Sunday I actually slept in. My ankle needed some elevating time. That afternoon I went with the guys to the beach for a few hours. What a way to say good bye to winter! It was a little chilly from the wind but otherwise a gorgeous day to be out there. Relaxed, read, watched the waves, toes in the sand…..ahhhh.
It really was one of those very great enjoyable weekends. No drama. No bullshit. Nothing. I guess my only issue could have been my car which is less than a year old has a leaky tire but the dealership found the nail, ordered the new tire & it’s all covered under the extra tire policy warrant I purchased. Yay!!! So even that isn’t bad. lol I went back to work today feeling very refreshed & happy. 😊
Watching somebody struggle from the sidelines is hard. You don’t know what to do or say but you want to be there. Especially when you have felt those same feelings.
My weekend was interesting. POS & I went to the party and then the concert Friday night. DD1 went along with us which was fine. The party was good. It was actually nice to catch up and chat with people. But I noticed POS was feeling pretty good already when we left for the concert. Got there & I went to find my group of friends. POS would circle around & we’d see each other and then he’d be off roaming again so I knew he was drinking lots. I just sort of hung back & observed.
Next morning I gave him a card for Sweetest Day after I asked him if we had any plans for that night (we didn’t). We ended up having “the talk” cause I was like its been almost 2 months what is going on here?? He says we’re just friends hanging out. Really??? Needless to say I was surprised since I don’t sleep with my friends. I recognized there was more to what he was saying so I was patient and just asked questions and listened. He said he feels numb. He doesn’t care. About anything. Work. Life. Nothing. He is just a robot going thru the motions of the day. I have noticed he’s been sleeping a lot and the past few weeks he has been “off”. I assumed it was stress from work not knowing he was in a slump. I asked if he wanted to hurt himself which he said no. He has been drinking more and more to the end of not knowing where he is over the edge. I have gotten a few texts from him when he’s had a lot and says he doesn’t know where he is (I don’t respond cause he’s drunk texting and assume who’s he with will handle the situation). But I find that scary!
I’m not sure where this depression is coming from or what’s triggering it. He claims not to either. His life appears to be going well (which isn’t everyone that is a mess?) but believe me…I understand the feelings of sadness and overwhelmed and not caring. It is the 5 year anniversary of his divorce. Maybe that’s it? I know I have certain days during the year that put me in a slump.
He hurt himself late Saturday at work (muscle pull) so we cancelled our dinner plans and stayed in Saturday night. Sunday I went to church and he said he might go to the dr. I asked him to keep me updated. I was pleasantly surprised when he did text me Sunday about 6:30 with an update and he’d been sleeping from the meds the dr gave him. I stopped by his house to check on him for a bit and then went home. I’m going to give him til Thursday. I’ll see if he contacts me this week. I also think we need to talk. He needs to hear it’s ok to ask for help and go get something if needed. Both his daughters have issues. It doesn’t make you a bad person. Just things aren’t firing correctly so get it back track. I am still taking my meds and I feel pretty good. Even with hearing what POS had to say it didn’t send me into some downward anxiety spiral. While I want to support him I can’t get sucked backwards into his issues if he isn’t willing to recognize or attempt to work on them.
I went to the beach Sunday. It was good therapy to walk along and listen to the water and think your thoughts. Soaked up some sun & read my book. It’s been a few weeks between being busy & red tide since I have gotten to enjoy it.
I’m having a good weekend & just trying not to ruin it. Lol
Friday I went dress shopping after work. Found some dresses for the reunion. It’s weird…I’m not quite sure what to wear? It says not formal but it’s drinks & appetizers so I’m thinking along the lines of a cocktail dress? I have a feeling people will be dressed all over the board so I’m aiming for the middle. I’m getting dresses as I find ones I like and then I’ll decide.
Friday night was spent at the beach with my cornhole partner celebrating his birthday. He wanted low key and sunset so that’s what he got! It was a nice evening just hanging out, watching the water & chatting with friends. I forget how spoiled we are to have the beach so close and not take advantage more often. It really is great therapy! Saturday I actually slept in which never happens! Went shopping again and then stopped by POS’s house on the way home to touch base for later on. We went to dinner at a place on the water which was very nice and relaxing. Then we met my friend & her BF for a drink. It was a very nice night.
Today I went to church & some more shopping before meeting POS for a late lunch after he finished work. Another friend joined us. She’s having major relationship issues with a guy (who is also a friend of ours). I feel bad for her & him…it’s gotten so crazy I really doubt it’s fixable. POS & I listened but afterwards we were both like wow. It made me realize we really are trying to work on things and how I have grown in dealing with relationship issues when I hear her say how they are acting or doing things. It’s a lot of drama and I am so glad not to be in any of it!
The rest of today has just been bumming. Took a nap during the football game. POS must of woke up cause now I hear the lawn mower going. And I’m just trying to sit back, enjoy the little moments & not overthink anything. Saw this little gem of wisdom in the bathroom at a bar this weekend (it cracks me up these bathroom inspirations): I’m going to follow that ❤️😊