Life has been busy. This time of year always seems to be. Lots going on which is great, but I’m trying not to over do it either.
I worked my side job last weekend. Which it had been raining on off for like 2 weeks. That’s getting old! Will got back from his work trip & we had a great dinner Sunday night (date #2). It was a really nice way to wrap up the weekend.
Monday I played cornhole, but Tuesday it got rained out. Impromptu dinner with friends which I invited Will also. I figured he’s seen me dressed up nice twice so this was casual jeans stuffing down wings. 🤣 He wasn’t fazed at all which was nice to see. I am enjoying hanging out & slowly getting to know him. He went out of town again for a few days & now his mom is here visiting until next week. I told him if he needs a break he knows how to find me. 😉
I had therapy last week. I do enjoy meeting with her. I know I’ve made a lot of improvements since last summer, but sometimes all I see is that hot mess still. She keeps it in perspective & we talk out things. Between the gym & a bday party I had a FULL week! Definitely going low key this weekend.
Last night had a concert with the girls which was a blast!! Then we headed next door to the casino for a bit. I don’t play but it’s fun to hang & watch. Today I’ve been running errands which FL summer had kicked in. It’s hot! I really wish I could get some beach time. Perhaps tomorrow? I sent my dad his Father’s Day stuff this week so I’ll give him a call.
I leave next Monday for Canada for 2 weeks so I’ve been getting things organized for that. I’m trying not to leave it til the last minute to get ready, but you know in some way it always ends up that way. Even work I’ve been trying to get ready so it’s not a complete mess this week or when I return.
Tonight is a life celebration for a friend’s family member. But it’s at a bar & then the beach for sunset. Not sure what to expect. Maybe the bar is a good idea?
Blah the rain. Yes we needed it. Yay we are ok longer a high fire risk. The grass is green & growing. But come on…since last Thursday night it’s been on/off & starting Monday pretty much all day rain. ☔️ So over it. I miss the sun. I miss my activities. I would like to not be wearing my raincoat all the time. 🙄
Monday started out with me driving to work & a low tire pressure light going on. On the tire I just replaced 6 weeks ago. Work was a bit of a shit show cause apparently people didn’t do things while I was gone which made meeting the deadlines that day insane. I left work & hauled ass to the car dealership so they could look at the tire. Turns out another nail (WTF??!!) and the computer needs to be adjusted cause it was the other side that was flat (not the side it was saying). Again wtf??? Thank goodness again for that extra tire warranty cause that’s another $400 I didn’t have to shell out when they ordered the tire. 🙏 I then headed to the gym where my face & jaw was starting to hurt so much I half assed it just get it done. I apologized to my awesome trainer…she knows when I’m not right & isn’t a jerk about it. I had taken a pain pill at work early, but I can’t drive on them so couldn’t take another. Got home, made dinner & went to bed! 👊
Tuesday more rain. More of the same work crap (still catching up). But changed my dinner plans when cornhole cancelled! My favorite local event is going on…restaurants offer fixed menus for a low price for 2 weeks. Usually these are upscale or places I never go so trying to get to a few new ones again this year. Except my frigging tooth pain is really putting a damper on things!! Nevertheless I was determined last night to eat & it was fabulous. Had a good time catching up with my gf & her bf. One of my favorite stores is having their semi annual sale so I stopped there & can you believe I found exactly what I have been looking for?? On sale??!! That never happens so it made for a much improved day!! And I got a cute new dress for peanuts at the thrift store on lunch break. Day improving. 👍
Today again it’s raining. Yeah shocker. 😂 I’m hitting the gym after work & then home. I need an early night to catch up. My tooth is still hurting & it’s been a week so I’m thinking there is something else wrong? I have a follow up dental appointment tomorrow.
Good news…William & I have continued to stay in touch. He’s back in Seattle, but coming home Sunday so we’re doing dinner that night. Date #2!! I’m trying not to be too excited or get ahead, but I am looking forward to seeing him & spending actual time together. It’s been almost a month we’ve been “talking” yet have only met that one time. Which is really weird for me (I’ve never done anything like this before) although I like it! How crazy is that? Things are moving slow which is good right now cause I have a lot of my own stuff going on. Fingers crossed 🤞
So the guy (William) I met with Tuesday last week…is going well. I say that cautiously cause my faith in men is zero but I’m trying to be optimistic.
We met for a drink which was going so well he suggested having some dinner. I of course took the opportunity to suggest dessert (which he loved!) so we had sundaes. We had good flowing conversation about all sorts of topics. After dessert he knew I had to get going for the cornhole meet up, but I said fuck that…I was having a good time meeting somebody with potential so WHY am I going to leave to go somewhere uncomfortable that I don’t HAVE to be??? So I stayed. Sent my girl a text so she knew my whereabouts & we continued on with our night. We took a walk around the stores & looked in windows or went inside. Just fun silly stuff. Then we stopped for a final drink at a beachy bar. It was a really good evening.
William then left the next day for Seattle where he’ll be for a good 2 weeks for work. During that time he’s taking a few days to fly back to the Midwest (home) to see his 2 kids. Since he’s recently moved to FL he tries to stay involved as much as he can. Luckily his work involves travel & is based by his kids so he can go back. But he’s continued to text & stay in touch with me which I think is a good sign.
I think it’s been good for me too. Meeting somebody new usually involves disappearing into a bubble, but with him gone I’ve kept my own schedule & plans. I’m watching my good friend disappear into the bubble with the girl he just met & hearing other people’s comments is rough. I am happy for him cause he’s happy so I understand how exciting it can be to meet somebody you click with & want to be around, BUT I have also learned I NEED to continue with my own life. I have worked way too hard to become my own person & as harsh as this sounds….I’m not going to toss it all aside for some new guy. I’m also not putting all my eggs in. Still continuing to be online & meet others so that helps keep things low key as well. I’m just taking things slow with anybody I meet & seeing what develops.
My birthday celebration is finally over. Drinks & dancing Saturday night did me in. Oh but it was fun!!! I’m so very blessed to have good people around me. Sunday after a slow start I ended up at the beach with friends. The annual cookout was a success & great time. I got a tad too much sun. Oops!! I do love where I live. Monday I got up early to run my errands & then I was back home in bed before it got super warm. My reward was a lazy day!
Tonight is the first official cornhole night of the other league. It will be nice to see the new people playing & catch up. Hopefully the ones I don’t care for will steer clear. 😂 Tomorrow is removing the rest of my wisdom teeth. My mom is on her way down now. I think she was just worried & being a mom even though I had arrangements with my roommate. Lucky him he’s off the hook now! So when you hear from me again I’ll be on a bunch of happy pills. Woo hoo!!!
I feel like I am getting back in the game again.
First my weight is at 168 lbs. Yay me! It’s been holding there for the past week which I think is a good sign. Obviously I’m still reaching for my goal of 160, but this is definitely signs of encouragement for me. Keep staying active & really think about what I eat!!
Next off…my dating life. It’s gotten a bit of a revival recently. Online dating is a necessary evil I feel to just try to meet more people. Where else can one go? As much as I do & try to spread my social circle it seems to be with a lot of people already in relationships. I have basically been using 2 sites (Tinder & Bumble) to find matches. Thanks to Tinder this week I have 2 meet ups.
#1 was last night after my cornhole league was over he stopped by the bar for a drink. His name is Mark. We had a very nice 2 hours of chatting & hanging out. I liked him & would like to get to know him more, but there are some obstacles. He works a goofy schedule (commercial pilot) which I totally understand & he also has 4 daughters ranging from 9-12 yo (a set of twins in there). So he’s pretty busy! Plus his divorce has only been officially final for a month so even though it’s been over, it’s now freshly over you know? He admits he’s just trying to get back out there & attempt having a social life with his job/kids which I appreciate his honesty. But here’s my deal…I know what I bring to the table. I don’t want you to be with me cause I’m the 1st girl you dated after divorce or cause you had a few weird encounters online & you think I’m really normal (yeah he said that lol). I want somebody who recognizes what a catch I am, WANTS to be with me & treats me accordingly. So go out there & date some other women so you can appreciate what I have to offer (sane, employed & financially responsible for starters which many woman down here aren’t!). He said he’d like to meet again which I said sure & to stay in touch with our schedules! So we’ll see….
#2 is happening tonight. Meeting for drinks. William is closer to my age. Grew up in the Midwest also. We have texted some, but I don’t know a whole lot about him so I am curious. Looking forward to it! Then I need to make an appearance at my other cornhole league which is having an opener meet & greet tonight. Honestly I just didn’t feel like hanging out with Joe & his partner Katie (shitty girl in previous posts) for a whole evening. It makes for an awkward time (watching her hang on the married guy is weird) & I have better things to do & people to hang out with. William is going on a work trip for 2 weeks & this was our only chance to meet before. Plus I’m crazy…remember? hahaha!!!
**only 2 more days til my birthday. Gosh that 40 is getting closer….
Since I defurnished my house, started trying to rent it, went on Craigslist for new housing & moved. Wow. It’s gone fast. And it feels like a lot has happened. I’ve moved another time since. I’ve learned a lot about who I am. I’ve put weight back on. I’ve been on & off the meds. I’ve made a new social circle(s) of friends. I’ve joined a gym (and actually like it!). I’m in therapy. I’m learning how to handle life & what I can control. I’ve learned to cut out people who aren’t beneficial to have around. I’ve done some traveling. I have actually been saving money. I’m recognizing when to have “me” time and why it’s important. I’m attempting to date again. I’m trying new things. I’m putting myself out there even if I might fail.
I guess that is a lot I’ve done the last year! Still a work in progress. Still growing. Which is good cause one should never stop.
Here’s to more good times & having faith in the rough times that it won’t last forever! 🥂
😵😵😵 yeah that’s not really something one needs to see at 7:20 am!
Little backstory…so this guy contacts me thru Facebook messenger awhile ago cause he had been following my Instagram. Apparently he’s interested in me so we chat a little but he’s much younger than me (like 10 years) so I say I’m not interested. But he seemed like an ok guy & I know a few single ladies his age so then I’m thinking maybe I’ll meet him to match them up? A good deed right? He makes some odd douchebag comments then & game over I’m out. He claims it’s a misunderstanding cause he’s English and the meaning of things or the way he phrases things. No I understood fine. Douchebag is a universal language & I’m not introducing you to any of my girls. Since then he’ll randomly send me FB messages which I just delete. Until this morning.
In all honesty I answered his message with the intent of saying I’m not interested and please stop contacting me, but he immediately started on with how he still wants to meet me yet he feels that I’m seeing someone. I was driving to work so I couldn’t respond but in my head I’m getting ticked like wtf crazy creeper and start composing my mental message of telling him to go fly a kite for when I can reply. BUT before I can even get that far here it comes. The unsolicited out of no where dick pic. WTF 😱 Why would anyone send a picture of their junk (or maybe it’s not his but still the intent is there) to somebody they don’t know & want to go out with?!?!?! I didn’t think guys really did that but apparently I was wrong! WHY??? I can’t get past that part. He then wanted my opinion so here was my response:He wasn’t happy that I wasn’t impressed & begging for more I guess cause he had a few more comments. But that was my final response. If he contacts me again I’ll have to figure out how to block. Seriously. What a frigging weirdo creeper!!!
Don’t get me wrong. If you are in a relationship with somebody and it’s mutual there is nothing wrong with sending some fun sexy photos. Whatever works right?! But if you’re going to send a girl you want to meet in person pictures, please let it be something cute. A kitten. 😺 The sunset. ⛅️ A palm tree. 🌴 NOT YOUR DICK. That is NOT cute.
And all my coworkers agree with me. Thanks for making our morning though. 😂
First I should say that Lucifer is my car. I treated myself last year to the new 2SS Camaro (the previous Mr Car was 15 years old so it’s not like I splurge often). It’s a total toy & lots of fun! He’s a sexy beast (dark gray) & I sold my soul to get him. Just kidding! Well sorta. But hence the name.
For whatever reason grown men turn into giggly little school girls when in his presence. Seriously. I actually find it rather comical cause this area is not lacking in high end fancy cars that are much nicer pricier than Lucifer. They want to sit in him, stare, circle around, push the buttons. Some want a ride, some friends I have even let drive. It reached a point in December I was going to start Ubering to my dates cause I’d meet the guy, you could tell neither of us were feeling it but then when we walked out to the parking lot suddenly they would find me oh so interesting & want to get my number or make another date. After meeting Lucifer of course. Really…and guys complain about girls doing that kind of shit?!?! lol
Last night was the baseball game with my friends & Anthony. We met at my friend’s house to carpool. I drove the 3 of us cause we were meeting her boyfriend there. It’s all going good. We’re chatting about our day. The game started out well. Lots of fun & perfect weather! How can you not enjoy it? About half way thru the game the conversation turns to cars. Anthony is totally fangirling over Lucifer! I poke my friend & say uh oh he’s got a crush. After the game we grabbed a bite before I dropped him back off at his car (which wasn’t a bad looking ride either). Every time I started the car he’d exclaim listen to that, that’s amazing, oh wow! I was like how drunk are you man???
So I was already starting to not really feel anything more towards Anthony, but by the end of the night I was sure of it. I think he’s a fun guy (my friends liked him) to hang out with but I’m not feeling any spark. And I’m sorry but I want that spark! I deserve the spark! Something that makes me excited to see or hear from him. A little bounce in my step. I can always tell if I’m into a guy cause the first question I ask myself is…does he make me want to take my clothes off?? NOTE: I AM NOT TAKING MY CLOTHES OFF!!! But does he make me feel even anything like that?? Does he intrigue me? Do I find him desirable? Since the answer is generally no the search continues. And maybe Lucifer stays home next time.