Whew…this has been a week! People be crazy I tell you. Work brought a lot of that. One lady came in several days this week yelling discrimination, threatening to sue & causing a scene among several departments. Next was the ever so polite gentleman who left a post it on the front wall that said “BITCH” with an arrow pointing at the front counter. Really…how old are we? And if you have an issue with staff, then speak to our supervisor. Oh wait, she’s a woman too so you probably hate her as well.
I completed my 1st 10K last Saturday!! I was super excited to finish so well (1:20 was my official time). I had planned on just walking, but ended up running probably close to 2.5 miles. I still finished feeling pretty good so I am on track for the more important 10K the end of April now! I have been really good the last month about getting in my steps & being more active.
My mom came down to visit last weekend. We went over to Disney on Sunday for the Flower & Garden festival. It was a good day just strolling around finding all the topiaries & chilling out. Some good people watching too. lol We do laugh a lot I have to say! My dad’s knee replacement last month went well & his recovery is coming along. I am hoping he’ll come visit soon too.
Kickball playoffs on Wednesday started this week & people decide not to show up. WTF? You can’t use subs so we had to play shorthanded, but amazingly those of us that came gelled together really well & pulled off a win. I was surprised honestly. I think next week the 1st game is going to end our season regardless who comes to play…the other team is very solid. But we had a good time! We are trying to field our team for next season & replace players which is a little more daunting than I had anticipated. Obviously as we lose original players, I want to replace them with better players so I am being selective in who I ask. I’m really looking forward to kickball tonight! It’s gotten to be a really fun bunch of people who play & we have a good time.
So here’s a funny…one of the guys from Wednesday kickball asked me out for drinks after the games. What’s interesting is I have known him from our Friday night league for awhile, but we never spoke or talked there. I had fun…played some pool, hung out with other players, talked a little. It was very low key…in fact so much that afterwards I was like hmmm what was that?? I like him, but I need to see where he’s headed with this. I am done making the first moves! I think I just also suck at dating. It’s such a gray area thing it seems & I have become a more black & white person.
Not sure what the game plan is for this weekend yet. Tomorrow I would like to get a bridge walk in (I have been doing that the last few Tuesdays since I stopped cornhole), but my feet are hurting today. I had to visit the foot doctor yesterday & he did some work on my nails. UGH! I know in a few days it will be fine, but right now it hurts! I wouldn’t mind a little beach time, but perhaps sand isn’t a good combo for the toes right now. I have been at the beach every weekend lately so I am getting my sunshine fix for sure. Sunday I have been hearing will be crappy weather so stuck inside. Maybe a movie?
March is arriving like a lion. RAAWWRRR!!!
Life is going well. I am almost scared to say that though. My new year resolutions of ignoring unhappy people & getting rid of time wasters is working out super. I have been hanging around positive people & focusing on my needs. I am actually done playing cornhole for now which is a little weird after 4 years every week, but it was time to try some new stuff. You would think it would free up 2 of my evenings, but it really doesn’t cause I am trying to get ready for upcoming 10Ks so I am putting in more time walking. I do get home earlier though which is a nice trade off.
I am playing in 2 kickball leagues which is fun! The Wednesday night crew is fun & we actually have hung out outside of kickball so meeting more people is great. We are getting ready to end the season, but most of us will be returning next season. Friday night kickball just started & will be a good time. The bonus part–Joe the creeper couldn’t fill his team so they aren’t playing this season! And since I am not playing Tuesday cornhole right now that means I NO LONGER HAVE TO SEE HIM!!!! Isn’t that amazing??? That’s how it frigging should have been 2 years ago!!! Life is so good. lol
Work has been ok. It is more enjoyable since I am doing just my job duties. I feel less stress & am much more caught up. An opening in another department did come up in February & yesterday I applied. I don’t know where it will go or if anything will even come of it, but at least I did it! The job closes on March 9th so it will be a bit before I hear anything either way.
My diet is good–I hit 12 pounds lost this morning! I have been sticking to my food plan except for the alcohol (lol I know). I might try to decrease it a little more to like 1000 calories a day & see what happens. Just under 4 weeks left in the gym challenge so I am motivated! I feel stronger & have really been putting in effort at the gym. A few people who haven’t seen me lately said my shape is changing & I am looking thinner so there is some progress! I was pleased last month also to become a Just Strong ambassador. They are a fitness clothing company in the UK that promotes & encourages women. So not only is it fun clothes to wear around, but I love the message of girl power being spread! If you decide you want to order I can give my discount code! http://www.juststrongclothing.com
So all in all I LOVE that March is roaring in!!! Feel the power! Know your value! 💙💚💛🧡❤️
I had a GREAT weekend! Lots of fun & laughs & just kicking back.
Friday night started with going to hear the band that I like to follow at a fun bar with a group from the gym. It’s an outdoor covered tiki bar which is perfect in FL cause rain or shine we keep going! I met a guy on Bumble recently & it turns out our mutual friends are from the gym so they brought him with also. Robert is good looking, from Czech (cute accent) & a lot of fun. Probably too much fun. Like I picture a different girl every night fun. lol We did hit it off & ended up at a few more bars that night before I dropped him off in the wee morning hours. As tempting as he was (and let me say HE WAS TEMPTING), I wasn’t going to stay with him that night. Something about him just had my gut saying pump the brakes…and usually that gut instinct smells something not right even if all else looks good! If he’s seriously interested he’ll contact me again & ask me out.
Saturday I didn’t get my butt out of bed until it was time to get ready to go out again. I went out with my BFF Jess who we haven’t seen each other in like a month thanks to crazy schedules & her boyfriend. We went to another bar where no surprise I run into fuckboy Andy. Yeah Mr I’m gonna get back with my GF but still take you to dinner. He was at the bar (alone may I add) so I strolled right up next to him, chatted with the bartender for a few (he’s the groom in the wedding I’m going to in May) & said a few words to Andy before joining my group at the other bar. My bartender couldn’t stop laughing when I walked up cause she said 1–I looked smoking hot (it was a good night!) & 2–fuckboy kept staring my direction now. lol Whatever, not looking int he rear view mirror anymore. I was happy cause shortly after that Nate showed up. He’s a guy from the Wednesday night kickball & is pretty cool. I kinda got a vibe he might like me too so I was like why not & invited him out. We had a lot of fun talking & laughing & did a little dancing. Unfortunately my drinks hit me way hard (I’m usually pretty good so this was a little surprising) & it was getting late so my ride was leaving. We did kiss a little, but not enough to make things weird at kickball. And he’s been messaging me a little. And he told Jess he really likes me. lol
Unfortunately the ride home was not one of my best moments. Poor Kevin had to pull the truck over. Maybe even several times. I don’t recall. The man is a champ I told Jess! I know I was home when my roommate got home & he couldn’t stop laughing. Neither could I the next day when I eventually woke up & started moving again. Hey…you only live once right? What a weekend it was!!!
And oh yeah—go Eagles!!
Two of my New Year resolutions (actually they should just be all the time reminders) is not to let unhappy people bring me down & get rid of the time wasters. I have to draw a line & not allow these types of people in my life or to ruin it. It’s hard to sometimes spot them cause they put on a good front so you’re fooled or unfortunately over time they morph into one of those people so you have to cut them loose.
Time wasters. Nothing pisses me off more than these people! If I lose money, I can always work more to make more. If something breaks, I can go buy another. You get the idea. Now I will probably be ticked about it, but it’s a “fixable” thing. But to waste my time that I can’t ever get back? Oh hell no!! I am learning to value myself & know what I am worth…and I am worth a whole lot more than people wasting my time! It turns out that Brian was a giant time waster. And when I called him out on Friday night about it he probably didn’t like hearing that very much. After texting me daily for 3 weeks straight & then hanging out with me at kickball Friday (like followed my team around & not his afterwards) & then coming out to the bar again with me, he’s all “are you coming to my house to snuggle” when we’re leaving. So I simply asked where this was going? Oh how fast he pedaled!! He has to focus on his career & new job. He doesn’t have time for a relationship. Blah blah blah. It’s the same old shit we all have heard. I said well I heard that all from his other chick so I didn’t know what was true/real which he tried to brush off being with her, but I said no really I am better than that. Which he agreed (I love how they do acknowledge it at least). He then says well I’m going to keep bugging you so I replied with yeah I don’t need any more bros so I am good. And I just held my ground staring right back at him. I’m not going to cave to a time waster once I see them for what they are! So he called me “such a pain in the ass” I am sure trying to be funny but my humor was gone. I nicely said “no I am irresistible**…(pause)…but by the time you realize it it will be too late” and started walking to my car. He yells text me when you get home (which I strongly resisted giving him the finger over my shoulder) & instead I said “good bye Brian”. He did send me a text on the way home which I didn’t answer & I haven’t heard from him since. Too dah loo MF!
** SIDE NOTE –now I do not believe myself to be “irresistible” or anything like that but in my somewhat intoxicated state I was going for another word (irreplaceable?) & unfortunately that was what popped out of my mouth so I just went with it. No way was I going to fumble on words in my moment with this dumbass!
Unhappy people. We all know them. We try to avoid them. Unfortunately when it’s at work & people in charge of me, I can’t ignore or cut them off (which would be my normal response). I received the job offer on Monday from the meeting/interview last week. Unfortunately it just isn’t feasible for me to accept it. When I actually lined up on paper what both companies have to offer me…I would be losing on every level at the new employer. Pay, hours, insurance, time off, retirement. So I was a little bummed to realize it’s not the right opportunity for me right now, but it also made me realize I really do have a good job that offers me a lot & I actually enjoy what I do for work. It’s just the unhappy people around me. So I need to learn how to work with that & not let it affect me. I will just be the happiest me I can be & if others want to be unhappy then let them. I don’t want to live that way…I have way too many good things going on! Focus more on my job (we are super busy) & let the side things go. In the last few days there have also been some big changes in other departments which could affect our department (people leaving, changing positions, etc…) so perhaps there will be some staff changes. I can wait a few months & see how it plays out.
My coworker & I are starting up a Friday morning before work walk for anybody that wants to join. Just an easy stroll to get the day started. We are getting some positive feedback & hopefully since I am now accountable I’ll get some more steps in (training for my upcoming 10Ks hasn’t been happening). I was also asked to join a Wednesday night kickball league cause they need more girls for a team. I don’t know anybody there (that I’m aware of at least) so this hopefully is a great opportunity for me to meet a bunch more new people. 18 teams with 10 people each is a whole lot of new people! My Friday night kickball season has ended (we got an early elimination last week thanks to all of us playing like crap) so I have over a month of free Fridays now! And this month I upped my gym member ship to 3 visits a week. I really need to lose weight. I am at the heaviest I have been in years & I know it’s from the unhappiness of the last 6 months. So lots of changes happening & change is exciting sometimes!!
It’s been a crazy few months. So crazy I haven’t been able to do much updating here. And some funny shit has happened that I’m sure would have been entertaining for you all.
Let’s see…Irma passed by. I had little damage at my house. Just a few screens needed replacing & that was it. The renters said they didn’t have power for about a week so they were in a shelter for a few days & then a hotel. Things had been going well at the house for a few months except the last few weeks of course. Something is wrong with the plumbing/pipes. Had the septic emptied, but didn’t resolve the issue. Now need a plumber to come fish the line cause something is clogged down the toilet. I’m really hoping the renters dropped something down the toilet that got stuck & it’s not roots or something bad with a broken pipe. We’ll see….
Work has been nuts. When I went back after Irma (had about a week off) people were off the wall batshit. I get there was a lot of stress & freaking out, but come on. Be a little professional. It was so bad in fact that I went home after the first day & restarted on my meds that I had stopped in February. I had been completely fine the entire hurricane yet going back to work in that environment had me literally an anxious mess in hours. So I bit the bullet & started back so within a few days I felt “normal” again. I felt like such a failure though I told my very close friends & therapist. It was hard for me to admit I was losing control again, but it was the best decision cause I could feel things starting to spiral. Except instead of throwing up I was eating like a starved fat kid at the buffet so I have packed on quite a bit weight. At this point I am 30 pounds heavier than I was a year ago (more on that later).
About mid-September I met a guy named Andy who I later renamed Fuckboy. I had a feeling about him being a bit of one, but my friends were really pushing for me to give him a chance & be open minded. After several weeks of him being up my ass everyday texting (yeah that was a sign so I kept my walls up) & hanging out a few times, I run into him at a bar on a Saturday night. With some other lady. The night after he cancels a date with me last minute cause of some emergency. Of course my friends bless their hearts jump into support mode–she’s not pretty, she looks so old, etc–but I’m not going to bash her. She’s irrelevant to me. I decide wtf do I have to lose & rather than just always wonder…I walk up to him on 1 side & sweetly say “hey what’s up?”. I have never seen somebody squirm & refuse eye contact & look so uncomfortable. hahaha!!! He stammers out a few things & actually has the balls to introduce me to whoever she is (I made sure to clearly say my name & shake her hand & smile big) before I turned my attention back on him. I remained calm & spoke quietly so I can’t be accused of acting crazy (we know how men LOVE to say that!!). I was like “what is going on?” to which he stated she’s his ex-gf who he thinks they are getting back together. Really after everything you said about her? He cringed & whether she heard me or not I don’t care. I said so the whole date the night before was fake & he never intended to follow thru. Oh no he assures me it wasn’t. Really?? Then riddle me Fuckboy how you are going on a date with me Friday night & getting back with her on Saturday? I should have leaned around him & let her know that was his plan. hahaha! Instead I said oh ok so you just did to me what you said you hate people doing to you–not being over their ex & wasting your time. Oh no he keeps saying. I just calmly kept repeating yes you did before he finally relented & says well yeah I guess so, I’m sorry. I said hey, best of luck then & walked away. Of course after that I was done with him & moved on with my night, but he kept staring at my group so my friends took turns waving. I was like whatever Fuckboy. I have no time for lies & BS in my life. I am glad I approached him & called him out rather than be left wondering wtf.
So that wraps up September & into October for me. I’ll get more caught up this week!
It’s had been a crazy amazing hectic time up here. Weather has been great (or so I’m told cause this FL girl has been freezing at times!), people charitable (it was a big fundraiser) & overall just so nice escape.
The reason I’m here for work has been jam packed & a full schedule, but a lot of money has been raised for the charities (almost $20K!!). Very exciting to see the impact the money raised last year has done & to know even more has been raised this year is inspiring.
Staying at my friend’s farm is always so refreshing. Lots of open space & green grass. The views off the deck just make you step back & relax. It’s a great place for me to come & recharge. Things seem so much more simple. Amazing how people always complicate things. 😂
I’m ready for my early morning of travel. The airport doesn’t even seem awake yet either. Looking forward to getting back home. I feel recharged after seeing friends for a week & ready go. Unfortunately my Fitbit broke yesterday so I’ll need to order a new one. At least a new one will have a warranty again!
Waiting for my flight. It’s time for my annual trip north for my side job. I can’t wait!!! It will be so good to be around folks from back home & who I grew up with.
I know I’ve been back from Canada only a little over a month but it’s time to get away again. There has been some drama among the friends & I don’t want any of it. I know it’s because they are unhappy & therefore pushing it on others. I recognize it cause I have been there & I refuse to get sucked back in. I have been trying to expand my circles and hang out with others. I’m also a lot more comfortable just being by myself so I do that too.
I was supposed to meet a guy last night but when I let him know I was slightly delayed he asked to reschedule cause he had a big day at work coming & was going to bed. WTF??!! I don’t care that you want to reschedule. I don’t care that you’re going to bed early. What pisses me off is at WHAT point were you going to tell me you weren’t coming??? Yeah reschedule my ass. How about take a flying leap?? I sort of had a feeling he was a dbag cause he would text weird stuff & way too into what was I doing or with. And we hadn’t even met!! According to the Rules…NEXT!!!