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Fitting it all in

Life has been busy. This time of year always seems to be. Lots going on which is great, but I’m trying not to over do it either. 

I worked my side job last weekend. Which it had been raining on off for like 2 weeks. That’s getting old! Will got back from his work trip & we had a great dinner Sunday night (date #2). It was a really nice way to wrap up the weekend.

Monday I played cornhole, but Tuesday it got rained out. Impromptu dinner with friends which I invited Will also. I figured he’s seen me dressed up nice twice so this was casual jeans stuffing down wings. 🤣 He wasn’t fazed at all which was nice to see. I am enjoying hanging out & slowly getting to know him. He went out of town again for a few days & now his mom is here visiting until next week. I told him if he needs a break he knows how to find me. 😉

I had therapy last week. I do enjoy meeting with her. I know I’ve made a lot of improvements since last summer, but sometimes all I see is that hot mess still. She keeps it in perspective & we talk out things. Between the gym & a bday party I had a FULL week! Definitely going low key this weekend. 

Last night had a concert with the girls which was a blast!! Then we headed next door to the casino for a bit. I don’t play but it’s fun to hang & watch. Today I’ve been running errands which FL summer had kicked in. It’s hot! I really wish I could get some beach time. Perhaps tomorrow? I sent my dad his Father’s Day stuff this week so I’ll give him a call.

I leave next Monday for Canada for 2 weeks so I’ve been getting things organized for that. I’m trying not to leave it til the last minute to get ready, but you know in some way it always ends up that way. Even work I’ve been trying to get ready so it’s not a complete mess this week or when I return.

Tonight is a life celebration for a friend’s family member. But it’s at a bar & then the beach for sunset. Not sure what to expect. Maybe the bar is a good idea?

So long wisdom teeth 

So as of Wednesday I am officially wisdom teeth free. It hurts. More than last time. I don’t know if it’s cause I was in pain for 2 months prior (and had an infected tooth) so there was a “relief” when the teeth were out?? This time I had no prior pain, but I am hoping it will fix the ear issues on my right side like my left side has felt since. And when I say it hurts not so much the tooth spot but more like my whole jaw area opening my mouth. I read that can happen during extraction if they have your mouth too open for too long? But it’s made for a good 2 day start into the new diet I wanted to try. 😂  My mom bless her heart came down Tuesday & flew back home this morning so she could take me Wednesday for surgery & check on me yesterday. I love her. 😍 I know we’ve had some very rough times, but I feel like our relationship is in a really good place! I wish my dad would have come just so I could have seen him but he wasn’t feeling good so didn’t want to fly. Which I totally understand but I miss him too. I have been trying to talk more on the phone with him so that helps. 

Which leads me to the new diet I’m trying. Why not right?? It’s called the military diet & is 3 days long. Supposedly you can lose up to 10 pounds (which I don’t believe will happen for me) although most people said they lost 7-8 lbs. I like that it gave very specific directions of what to eat & since I’m not eating much anyways I thought now would be a good time. Here is the Day 1 menu: 

See what I mean that it’s pretty idiot proof to follow?? 😜 That’s what I need! The only thing I’m swapping out is instead of vanilla ice cream I’ll have plain applesauce (yeah have had a lot of that lately 😂) which it’s actually less calories (I compared). And I don’t drink coffee or tea so just more water (I have been working on that the last few weeks).  I don’t know what to expect? Losing 5 lbs to restart my system & then let my body “adjust” to that would be great! But realistically I have no idea. I’m not exercising as much or even moving which is the key to this restart. It looks like they lower your calories to minimal (1000-1200 day) & if you’re still keeping the same output obviously weight will come off. Oh wow genius moment there I know! 🤓 These dental drugs are amazing! Hahaha!!!

The next 2 days of the diet look similar (I’ll keep posting). Obviously this isn’t something you live on & then the “off” days I’ll need to stay observant of what I eat, how much, etc… like I have been doing. It’s something to try & only 3 days so I can stick it out! I went shopping this morning (that was fun cause I took all my drugs before I left) so I have all the food I need.

Now to just get my sleep pattern back on track. 😴 This is day 3 of not working which feels so weird. Having had the long weekend & only working Tuesday & not going back til Monday feels like a vacation for me now. Except not going anywhere or NEEDING to do anything. I would like to work on getting my bathroom unpacked (yeah I’m slow) & reorganized so that can be my goal. 😎 

Feeling back in the game

I feel like I am getting back in the game again.

First my weight is at 168 lbs. Yay me! It’s been holding there for the past week which I think is a good sign. Obviously I’m still reaching for my goal of 160, but this is definitely signs of encouragement for me. Keep staying active & really think about what I eat!!

Next off…my dating life. It’s gotten a bit of a revival recently. Online dating is a necessary evil I feel to just try to meet more people. Where else can one go? As much as I do & try to spread my social circle it seems to be with a lot of people already in relationships. I have basically been using 2 sites (Tinder & Bumble) to find matches. Thanks to Tinder this week I have 2 meet ups.

#1 was last night after my cornhole league was over he stopped by the bar for a drink. His name is Mark. We had a very nice 2 hours of chatting & hanging out. I liked him & would like to get to know him more, but there are some obstacles. He works a goofy schedule (commercial pilot) which I totally understand & he also has 4 daughters ranging from 9-12 yo (a set of twins in there). So he’s pretty busy! Plus his divorce has only been officially final for a month so even though it’s been over, it’s now freshly over you know? He admits he’s just trying to get back out there & attempt having a social life with his job/kids which I appreciate his honesty. But here’s my deal…I know what I bring to the table. I don’t want you to be with me cause I’m the 1st girl you dated after divorce or cause you had a few weird encounters online & you think I’m really normal (yeah he said that lol). I want somebody who recognizes what a catch I am, WANTS to be with me & treats me accordingly. So go out there & date some other women so you can appreciate what I have to offer (sane, employed & financially responsible for starters which many woman down here aren’t!). He said he’d like to meet again which I said sure & to stay in touch with our schedules! So we’ll see….

#2 is happening tonight. Meeting for drinks. William is closer to my age. Grew up in the Midwest also. We have texted some, but I don’t know a whole lot about him so I am curious. Looking forward to it! Then I need to make an appearance at my other cornhole league which is having an opener meet & greet tonight. Honestly I just didn’t feel like hanging out with Joe & his partner Katie (shitty girl in previous posts) for a whole evening. It makes for an awkward time (watching her hang on the married guy is weird) & I have better things to do & people to hang out with. William is going on a work trip for 2 weeks & this was our only chance to meet before. Plus I’m crazy…remember? hahaha!!!

**only 2 more days til my birthday. Gosh that 40 is getting closer….

Fabulous weekend…

So true!!! What an overall great weekend. I really needed it too.  

Friday started with the St Patrick’s Day celebration. Got my green on, met up with the group & we had a blast. Just kept hopping from bar & food places all night. So much fun to kick back & laugh! 🍀🌈

Saturday started with a trip to WalMart which never disappoints on the entertainment scale. Did you know there is more than 1 way to shave a rat? Apparently there is according to the cashier who was very frustrated with their computer not working. I wasn’t sure how to respond. 🤔 Then I went with my girlfriends & their daughters (total girl trip!) to see Beauty & the Beast. I thought it was good!!! On the way home texting my friend Zac about night plans & he asks me to go with to a wedding. Why not!?!? What girl doesn’t love to glam it up a little? It turned out to be at this absolutely beautiful place on the water all outside. The ceremony by the beach, the sunset with cocktails, dinner under lights & dancing by the stars. What an amazing event & evening! I love going to weddings (even if I don’t know anyone lol) cause it’s so wonderful to see all the love and be a part of people’s special day. 💕

Sunday I actually slept in. My ankle needed some elevating time. That afternoon I went with the guys to the beach for a few hours. What a way to say good bye to winter! It was a little chilly from the wind but otherwise a gorgeous day to be out there. Relaxed, read, watched the waves, toes in the sand…..ahhhh. 

It really was one of those very great enjoyable weekends. No drama. No bullshit. Nothing. I guess my only issue could have been my car which is less than a year old has a leaky tire but the dealership found the nail, ordered the new tire & it’s all covered under the extra tire policy warrant I purchased. Yay!!! So even that isn’t bad. lol  I went back to work today feeling very refreshed & happy. 😊

Scared of happy??

Is anybody scared of being happy? Does being happy…like really truly happy everything is going right…worry you??

I saw this post & I’m starting to feel that way. I don’t know if I have ever really truly been totally happy and while I don’t know if I am now…I am at least as close as I’ve ever been. My life is finally going right! And then even thinking that sort of freaks me out cause then I just KNOW something is going to go wrong. Or bad things will happen. Or everything I’ve worked for will fall apart. I don’t know but something REALLY BAD!

I know. Breathe. Stop over thinking. Relax. Nothing is wrong. But sometimes it’s like the hamster wheel that just keeps spinning & spinning & spinning. You can’t stop yourself. At least the good part is I can now recognize when I’m acting oh slightly crazy and I work myself thru it. Which is pretty much reminding myself nothing has happened, nothing is wrong, it’s all in my head & to calm the fuck down. 

POS & I had a good time last night. Went to a new to us place just down the street for dinner and they had a fun band playing. It was just one of those really super nice nights. Of course a few of the Mai Tais helped start the weekend for me…after hurricane party!!