I type this as I’m flying back south after a weekend visit to Chicago. Less than 48 hours there, but an interesting trip for me. The reason for this trip was the wedding (the bachelorette party from last month) & as a bonus I got to see my dad for Father’s Day!
It started Friday after work. First flight was fine. Delays all over at the next airport which wasn’t affecting me initially, but eventually my flight was 40 minutes late leaving. Whatever. I wasn’t in a time crunch & I wasn’t going to be bothered by something I can’t control. Holy cow other people were super pissed though so I enjoyed dinner at my gate & some late evening entertainment! I landed really late, got my Lyft & made it to the hotel by 1:30am so not too bad. Yay!
Saturday morning after being up over 20 hours & with the time change I only got a few hours nap we’ll call it. Since it was 8am & I didn’t have to be ready for the wedding shuttle til 3pm…I went to the hotel gym. I know? Who the fuck am I?? I have become the weird person who works out AND LIKES IT on vacations. 🤷🏼♀️ I then went to breakfast at the restaurant & enjoyed a leisurely meal before I went back to nap some more & get ready. I pondered the pool but it was indoors and didn’t have good chairs to read or sleep on.
As I sat there eating breakfast I realized how much I have changed. I came all by myself on this trip (not even meeting up with my BFF as my wedding date), hadn’t spoke to anyone (outside of hotel or airport interactions) since I left work Friday & was actually doing things (not just hiding in my room) AND I WAS OK WITH IT. Ding ding. Wow big girl moment! I dare say I felt quite at ease and comfortable with my own company. I am always surprised when people tell me they won’t do things on their own cause it makes me then wonder how little I would be doing if I hadn’t adopted the just do it mentality 5+ years ago? Honestly I didn’t always feel comfortable or I’d feel very self conscious doing things solo especially if it was a couples or group type thing but I just kept pushing myself to go rather than miss out. Eventually I just ignored the feelings & did whatever it was. But this was the first time I honestly could say I was comfortable with being by myself.
The wedding Saturday by the way was amazing! It was outside at an estate in a very upscale area and all top notch. I got to see the girls I met last month all gussied up plus several friends I hadn’t caught up with since I moved so it was very enjoyable. The bride & groom were a beautiful couple and I am so happy everything was perfect for them! Except the bloody heat & humidity. It was sweltering sitting there for the ceremony so I can only imagine how the wedding party felt standing. Seriously I never want to hear anyone bitch about Florida heat again! I mean if you are in the center of the state or some shithole area by all means but you brought that on yourself honey. I live on the Gulf & we have breezes and there’s never been a triple digit day. Now the Chicagoland area…they are having severe heat watch or whatever they call it & it’s like the face of the sun trying to breathe. I don’t miss any of that! I’m so happy to be on the plane headed south right now 🤣
I was a bum this morning. I considered working out again, but that would make 4 days in a row when I get home which I’ve learned doesn’t work for me. I need a recovery day if I want my workouts to be effective. My parents picked me up at the hotel & we went for Father’s Day lunch on the way to the airport. I was so happy to see my Dad today as I haven’t gotten to spend it with him in the 5 years since I moved. Plus I haven’t seen him since November for his birthday. We talk on the phone and stay in touch regularly but it’s just not the same. The parents are going on a vacation next week but I encouraged Dad at least (mom’s working) to come visit even for a few days after that so maybe.
All in all it was a great trip! I realized I’ve had a lot of personal growth which is good to see. I’m happy to be heading home though. I upped my gym membership this month & I’m having my food delivered again this week. I need to get back on track for my weight goals. I was so close and the last 2 weeks its gotten ugly. 😖 All on me & I know it so time to get serious again. The 4th of July is mygoal now!
Where have 31 days gone???
My birthday celebration was amazing! I have so many wonderful friends down here who went the extra mile to make everything special. I am so blessed! It started on last Thursday at the gym with a birthday workout class where I wore a tutu…cause who doesn’t wear a rainbow tutu to workout?? Complete with singing & laughs it was definitely a fun sweat session. We then headed over to a local craft brewery for food trucks & cake to blow out my last day in the 30’s. I pointed out to one of the gym owners what an amazing bunch of members they have at their gym to make a person’s day so special.
My actual birthday on Friday was great! My co-workers once again went above & beyond. Flowers, candy, little booze bottles–OH MY!!! Went out that night with a group that started at bar #1 for some drinks & to get going. Moseyed over to bar #2 for MORE drinks (probably not such a great idea in the long run lol) & dancing (probably a good idea but too late by then lol). People kept filtering in & out all night which was amazing to see so many friends. Bless my core group that got me home that night. Much love!!
Saturday was my friend’s 30th birthday party & she wanted a sunset booze cruise which was tons of fun! Probably about 25 people went & we had a great time despite the crummy weather. I definitely would love to go again when it’s nicer out. I refrained from drinking & instead opted to be a DD for me & Joe (NOT the douchebag creeper ex from 2 years ago but another Joe who’s a nice guy) since he had to leave early for work the next day. The crowd then continued onto dinner which I felt bad for the restaurant. A large mostly drunk group isn’t what they wanted I am sure on a Saturday night, but seeing as they didn’t have much business in hindsight they should have been a bit nicer to us. Probably why they weren’t very busy!
Sunday was a day of just bumming before going to see the Avengers movie. I went with the guy I had met for lunch last week. Rob is nice & I think we get along fine, but unfortunately it turns out he works out at my gym so that’s a big fat NOPE for me. We had no idea beforehand & of course figured it out while talking at lunch. Which means we also know several mutual people & such so I just won’t go there. I have seen gym drama go bad & have no desire to be a part of it. Plus I love my gym & it’s MY place to go to vent & relax…I don’t want to have to find another!
Monday I had off from work so Joe & I went to a theme park. Rode some roller coasters, had some laughs, enjoyed the day. Came home & binge watched some Jersey Shore Family Vacation episodes. OMG–those people make me feel so much better about myself!
Overall it was a GREAT birthday & month. I am not sure #40 will ever be topped but it sure will be fun trying!
That’s all I heard the entire time I was in Jamaica 🇯🇲
Just got back Monday night. What a great time!! Secrets St James was really nice. Flew into Montego Bay with about 30 people from our group on Thursday. My friend from up north came down from Chicago Wednesday so getting up at 2:30am for our ride after being out late at kickball was REALLY FUCKING EARLY. And I’m a morning person who pops up with no coffee so imagine all the non-morning people. It was not good for awhile. 🤐
The resort was nice. The pool was great. Thursday was about a 20-22 hour long day for a lot of us (those 20 minute cat naps don’t count for shit) so I saw a lot of hangry happening. Then the booze kicked in. I will say they know to keep those drinks coming at the front desk & check in process…especially when some people couldn’t get in their rooms for a few hours & it was already after noon.
Friday was spent out by the pool. By then we had started to break off into little groups. The single/fun couples grouped up so we had about 7 of us that bummed around together & tried things out. We just waited for instructions on where to be & when, but otherwise had a good ole time doing our own thing. Went kayaking for a bit. Went in the ocean a few times when we got tired of the pool crowd. The weather was perfect! That night we broke off for our own dinner cause we knew trying to get 50 people together for dinner at the same place was gonna be an epic shit show. Heck even the bride’s mother joined us. lol We met up with everyone else after for (more) drinks & some of us continued on to the club later that night (waaaay more drinks!). Let’s just say that was an even bigger shit show. haha!!
Saturday we tried stand up paddle boarding before the water got rough & unfortunately by late morning the rain started coming & going. Luckily by wedding time later it was clear & the ceremony on the beach was just beautiful. The couple looked stunning & the backdrop was amazing. It was everything you could hope for. They had made the call for the reception to be moved inside which was really good as it did downpour hard a few times later on. The evening was a great time, but by 11pm I was dying (probably my less than 3 hours of sleep the night before) so I bailed. I didn’t feel too bad though as a lot of people were experiencing during the trip what we called “the Jamacians” which meant they weren’t leaving the bathroom. I was probably one of the few who didn’t get it. But I was also pretty conscious of what I ate & how much since my system had been messed up before the trip. My friend was sick Friday night, but on the plus side she said she didn’t think she’d gain any weight on the trip. lol
Sunday some of the people started leaving which about 1/2 our little group did. I have to say the day was a bit of a bust as it had a few really good downpours between the rain sprinkles. We tried the pool for awhile, but getting soaked by large COLD rain wasn’t working for me so I bailed. We did a fun hibachi place for dinner & stayed low key. I’ll miss those chocolatinis the lobby bartender knew to keep making for me! Leaving Monday was a little sad. Met so many cool people considering when we started the trip not really knowing anyone. I had a really good time & loved the experience so I would definitely go again!
I had a really nice weekend of nothing. Just relaxing, refreshing, renewing myself.
Doggy sitting was great! Saturday morning snuggles in bed & then I went to the beach for the afternoon. Got some great sun & sand time. Took about a 2 mile walk along the shore which was nice.
Saturday night I went out with my friend Tiffany since we’ve both been super busy & haven’t seen each other. Tried this adorable little German restaurant (thanks Groupon!) that was really good & authentic. I can’t wait to go again!
Sunday was another lazy morning with the puppies before I drove by my house since it’s been awhile to check things out. It looks ok–not sure about the new lawn company that took over so I’ll need to do a few more visits to check their work. Noticed the palm trees looked long so I called my tree guy to get them trimmed. The neighborhood as a whole seems to be on the upswing from when I started looking in there 3.5 years ago for houses. People have made exterior improvements, houses have been cleaned up, the foreclosures seem less. Yay!! I then did some shopping (need dresses for the upcoming wedding trip & then a bachelorette weekend) which was successful! Headed back to the house to let the puppies play outside before the storm hit. Which once it did we climbed in bed & watched TV/slept. Very uneventful day which is good for me.
I didn’t hear from J all weekend after we had drinks after kickball Friday. He had plans with friends coming from out of town. At first I was ok. Then I got bugged. Then I was all right. Then I started worrying. And about what I have no idea?!?!?! God I hate this crappy fear of I don’t know what…him disappearing? Leaving? I never used to feel this way. I think about everything I said & if I was ok? Or how he reacted. I sent him a text later Sunday & he responded a bit later that he just got home. I gave him a bit to settle & then called him. We chatted a bit which was nice. And nothing was wrong. He was fine. I was just having irrational stupid over thinking freak out. I would like to thank the previous douchebag for that! Argh…I really am trying to work on this issue with myself. I don’t want to hold other’s actions against him cause he’s done nothing wrong or even remotely close to it. He’s very sweet, calls me when he says he will & really likes me so I don’t want to blow it. I am glad to have therapy this week so we can discuss it.
It’s had been a crazy amazing hectic time up here. Weather has been great (or so I’m told cause this FL girl has been freezing at times!), people charitable (it was a big fundraiser) & overall just so nice escape.
The reason I’m here for work has been jam packed & a full schedule, but a lot of money has been raised for the charities (almost $20K!!). Very exciting to see the impact the money raised last year has done & to know even more has been raised this year is inspiring.
Staying at my friend’s farm is always so refreshing. Lots of open space & green grass. The views off the deck just make you step back & relax. It’s a great place for me to come & recharge. Things seem so much more simple. Amazing how people always complicate things. 😂
I’m ready for my early morning of travel. The airport doesn’t even seem awake yet either. Looking forward to getting back home. I feel recharged after seeing friends for a week & ready go. Unfortunately my Fitbit broke yesterday so I’ll need to order a new one. At least a new one will have a warranty again!
It’s been a good weekend. Friday night was kickball which went great! My team played Joe’s team & we beat them. Plus he never made it to 1st base. That was pretty sweet! I’m hoping the less fun he has perhaps the sooner he’ll go away. But it was a very fun night overall. I played the 2nd game for another team which went well. I’m feeling pretty strong and am playing consistently. Afterwards people went out for food & drinks so it’s nice to meet new people and hang out.
Saturday I was determined to get to the beach since last weekend was a total bust sun wise. I met my friend Jess & her daughter so we had a girls day. Sun, sand, waves, making sandcastles, laughing….so much fun!! Saturday night was a friend’s birthday party. We met for dinner and then did an escape room place afterwards. I’ve done one previously with work, but nobody else had. It was fun! Little frustrating especially in the beginning cause we couldn’t get past the first puzzle but we eventually got there with some hints. I find those puzzles or clues I either “see” it right away or I never will. We were able to solve it in time barely which was a miracle! And everyone left still speaking to each other!! 😂
Today I’ve been a bum. I was hoping to get some more beach time, but they were saying rain showers all day which it did. So I slept some, watched tv, read. Yup I’ve been reading this book. And it’s working!! 😲 No shit it really is. I mean I’m not taking it as the gospel, but skimming thru & reading parts really has made me think how I do things or have in the past. So I’ve tried a few times doing what the Rules suggest. And it worked! I’m going to keep trying it & see how it goes. What do I have to lose??
Ahhh…made it thru the week. 😜 Which was soooo long it seemed. Granted I started off with a few late nights but it just felt like I couldn’t catch up. Work just drug out. A lot is happening there, but it’s staying under control. The gym I just can’t back into. My energy level is blah. I know my diet it crap and I’m feeling it! Changing my food around and trying to make better choices. I can’t get away from the sugar sweet junk though.
I was happy on Thursday night to get to talk to Will. He’s still out west for work a few more days before he flies to the Midwest to spend a week with his kids. Then he’s finally coming back here!! Yeah I’m a little excited. We had good conversation (seems like we always do) talking about everything & nothing. I am looking forward to actually getting to spend some time together and see where it goes. 😊
Kickball last night was awesome! Our team won, but I also made a HUGE play when we really needed it & I’m not gonna lie…it felt great!!! It’s such a good time with friends and hanging out.
This weekend is pretty laid back. I’m hoping to get some beach time today if the weather allows it. Want to do some reading as well. Have a friend’s going away party tonight. Not sure about tomorrow yet. Maybe a movie? See how it goes.
Happy weekend all!! Do what makes you happy 😁