That’s how I’m feeling today. No real plans. Blah weather. I’m in the mood for something but I couldn’t tell you what??? 🤷🏼♀️
Right now I’m starting at the car dealership to get my tire replaced. Yup that’s the 3rd tire with a nail since this spring. I have no idea where I’m driving or parking that this is suddenly such an issue for me. Thank goodness for that tire warranty!!!! 🙏
Not sure what my next stop will be. We’re getting a lot of rain. ⛈ Not sure if that’s an off shoot from hurricane Harvey? I feel like just poking around & seeing what I find. This is rare for me cause usually I have everything so scheduled if I want to do anything.
Here’s to hoping everyone has a wonderful weekend! 💙💜❤️
It’s had been a crazy amazing hectic time up here. Weather has been great (or so I’m told cause this FL girl has been freezing at times!), people charitable (it was a big fundraiser) & overall just so nice escape.
The reason I’m here for work has been jam packed & a full schedule, but a lot of money has been raised for the charities (almost $20K!!). Very exciting to see the impact the money raised last year has done & to know even more has been raised this year is inspiring.
Staying at my friend’s farm is always so refreshing. Lots of open space & green grass. The views off the deck just make you step back & relax. It’s a great place for me to come & recharge. Things seem so much more simple. Amazing how people always complicate things. 😂
I’m ready for my early morning of travel. The airport doesn’t even seem awake yet either. Looking forward to getting back home. I feel recharged after seeing friends for a week & ready go. Unfortunately my Fitbit broke yesterday so I’ll need to order a new one. At least a new one will have a warranty again!
Waiting for my flight. It’s time for my annual trip north for my side job. I can’t wait!!! It will be so good to be around folks from back home & who I grew up with.
I know I’ve been back from Canada only a little over a month but it’s time to get away again. There has been some drama among the friends & I don’t want any of it. I know it’s because they are unhappy & therefore pushing it on others. I recognize it cause I have been there & I refuse to get sucked back in. I have been trying to expand my circles and hang out with others. I’m also a lot more comfortable just being by myself so I do that too.
I was supposed to meet a guy last night but when I let him know I was slightly delayed he asked to reschedule cause he had a big day at work coming & was going to bed. WTF??!! I don’t care that you want to reschedule. I don’t care that you’re going to bed early. What pisses me off is at WHAT point were you going to tell me you weren’t coming??? Yeah reschedule my ass. How about take a flying leap?? I sort of had a feeling he was a dbag cause he would text weird stuff & way too into what was I doing or with. And we hadn’t even met!! According to the Rules…NEXT!!!
Wowzers….it’s been a month. Sorry folks I am a bad blogger lately. Which is a shame cause I’ve had so much happen to share. So here’s some quick catch up which I’ll divide into 3 areas: before Canada, in Canada & back from Canada. 😊
So before I left in June for Canada I never did see Will again. I think his mom being here visiting and away from the kids for the 1st Father’s Day really got to him so the free weekend he did have (the one before I left) he went back to STL for kid time. Kind of a bummer cause I had tons of fun things happening he could have joined in on, but I also understood the need. On that note since we don’t have any commitment & have only hung out a few times I did have another guy ask me out so I went. We actually met at a mutual friend’s Memorial Day party & he asked her for my number (she asked me first). Met Mark for dinner on a week night cause I was days away from leaving. He seemed cool and we chatted awhile. I met him again for dinner the night before I left. Still unsure how I feel about him but I’m in no rush so left things with stay in touch the next few weeks.
Hung with friends at the beach and parties before I left. So much fun!! Glad to blow off some steam cause I knew the Canada trip was going to be hard work. Interesting side note…I got a friend request from a guy that turns out (yeah I do some checking before accepting) to be Joe the ex’s new roommate. Wtf??!! 😵 Initially I thought hell no deny that shit, but then I wondered what the game was so I waited. I spoke to this guy over 2 months ago once and to randomly send this now??? Like right after moving in with Joe? Hmmmm I did end up accepting the request but with setting restrictions so he can see only my public info. Have to see how this plays out. A few days later he followed me on other social medias that I do have public (I don’t post much personal info on those so enjoy 😂). Again it’s just weird.
Got my stuff packed and organized for Canada. Got my work organized as best I could for being out of the office over 2 weeks. The trip to Canada turned out to be nothing like the past 3 trips I’ve done previously. 16-18 hour days on your feet & oops oh you didn’t get lunch? I don’t mind hard work, but some appreciation and consideration is nice. I’ve also not been around CRAZY people in quite awhile. I stay away from that. I don’t work for that anymore. I’m not friends with that. And here I was unfortunately stuck in the middle of full on psycho crazy! Obviously next time I’ll be asking a lot more questions before I accept going on a trip like this again. I did get out of town for 2 weeks which in some ways was good. I could tell the drama was getting to me & I needed to break away. I got paid and that pays for the vacation I want to take next year so yay!!! I enjoyed Calgary again & would love to visit when I can do what I want and see the area. It really is an amazing place.
I got home last Monday. It took ALL day & 3 flights but I was back in my bed at 10:30pm. I slept a lot on the flights and on my layover in Dallas which helped. I’m just so body sore & my poor feet are a wreck. I figured it’ll take 2 weeks to recover and it looks like I’m right. I spent Tuesday running errands and catching up before returning to my real job Wednesday. And that actually hasn’t been as messy as one would have thought. Yay!! I did make it to the gym once and sort of muddled thru a workout of what didn’t hurt or was healing.
I had therapy appt last week. Which I felt pretty good! I could have probably used the visit before, but I sort of feel like a lot of my anxiety and stress is gone. Or I’m just so tired I don’t give a shit. 🤔 I told my therapist she would have loved the group I was with for 2 weeks and they made me feel VERY normal. We laughed a lot.
I spent this weekend low key. Kickball started up again so I had games Friday night and then I went out with my girl Jess. We had fun! Saturday I got some beach time in!!! Today I walked a little & ran some errands. Just being a bum and resting which feels good! I’ll get more on my routine this week which will be nice.
Life has been busy. This time of year always seems to be. Lots going on which is great, but I’m trying not to over do it either.
I worked my side job last weekend. Which it had been raining on off for like 2 weeks. That’s getting old! Will got back from his work trip & we had a great dinner Sunday night (date #2). It was a really nice way to wrap up the weekend.
Monday I played cornhole, but Tuesday it got rained out. Impromptu dinner with friends which I invited Will also. I figured he’s seen me dressed up nice twice so this was casual jeans stuffing down wings. 🤣 He wasn’t fazed at all which was nice to see. I am enjoying hanging out & slowly getting to know him. He went out of town again for a few days & now his mom is here visiting until next week. I told him if he needs a break he knows how to find me. 😉
I had therapy last week. I do enjoy meeting with her. I know I’ve made a lot of improvements since last summer, but sometimes all I see is that hot mess still. She keeps it in perspective & we talk out things. Between the gym & a bday party I had a FULL week! Definitely going low key this weekend.
Last night had a concert with the girls which was a blast!! Then we headed next door to the casino for a bit. I don’t play but it’s fun to hang & watch. Today I’ve been running errands which FL summer had kicked in. It’s hot! I really wish I could get some beach time. Perhaps tomorrow? I sent my dad his Father’s Day stuff this week so I’ll give him a call.
I leave next Monday for Canada for 2 weeks so I’ve been getting things organized for that. I’m trying not to leave it til the last minute to get ready, but you know in some way it always ends up that way. Even work I’ve been trying to get ready so it’s not a complete mess this week or when I return.
Tonight is a life celebration for a friend’s family member. But it’s at a bar & then the beach for sunset. Not sure what to expect. Maybe the bar is a good idea?
So the guy (William) I met with Tuesday last week…is going well. I say that cautiously cause my faith in men is zero but I’m trying to be optimistic.
We met for a drink which was going so well he suggested having some dinner. I of course took the opportunity to suggest dessert (which he loved!) so we had sundaes. We had good flowing conversation about all sorts of topics. After dessert he knew I had to get going for the cornhole meet up, but I said fuck that…I was having a good time meeting somebody with potential so WHY am I going to leave to go somewhere uncomfortable that I don’t HAVE to be??? So I stayed. Sent my girl a text so she knew my whereabouts & we continued on with our night. We took a walk around the stores & looked in windows or went inside. Just fun silly stuff. Then we stopped for a final drink at a beachy bar. It was a really good evening.
William then left the next day for Seattle where he’ll be for a good 2 weeks for work. During that time he’s taking a few days to fly back to the Midwest (home) to see his 2 kids. Since he’s recently moved to FL he tries to stay involved as much as he can. Luckily his work involves travel & is based by his kids so he can go back. But he’s continued to text & stay in touch with me which I think is a good sign.
I think it’s been good for me too. Meeting somebody new usually involves disappearing into a bubble, but with him gone I’ve kept my own schedule & plans. I’m watching my good friend disappear into the bubble with the girl he just met & hearing other people’s comments is rough. I am happy for him cause he’s happy so I understand how exciting it can be to meet somebody you click with & want to be around, BUT I have also learned I NEED to continue with my own life. I have worked way too hard to become my own person & as harsh as this sounds….I’m not going to toss it all aside for some new guy. I’m also not putting all my eggs in. Still continuing to be online & meet others so that helps keep things low key as well. I’m just taking things slow with anybody I meet & seeing what develops.
My birthday celebration is finally over. Drinks & dancing Saturday night did me in. Oh but it was fun!!! I’m so very blessed to have good people around me. Sunday after a slow start I ended up at the beach with friends. The annual cookout was a success & great time. I got a tad too much sun. Oops!! I do love where I live. Monday I got up early to run my errands & then I was back home in bed before it got super warm. My reward was a lazy day!
Tonight is the first official cornhole night of the other league. It will be nice to see the new people playing & catch up. Hopefully the ones I don’t care for will steer clear. 😂 Tomorrow is removing the rest of my wisdom teeth. My mom is on her way down now. I think she was just worried & being a mom even though I had arrangements with my roommate. Lucky him he’s off the hook now! So when you hear from me again I’ll be on a bunch of happy pills. Woo hoo!!!
Vacation that is. Amazing how fast & slow time can go. I’m all packed & just enjoying the views before we get picked up for the ride to the airport.
Everything has really been great. The condo was awesome. Loved it, loved what it offered, loved the location. Perfect for us. Jaco has been a lot of fun to explore & see. It’s a good place to base out of. Our excursion to the Poas volcano & La Paz waterfall gardens with the animal refuge was AMAZING!!! I got so many great pictures. That’s exactly the kind of things I hoped to see. We ate at a lot of places in town & I tried things I wouldn’t normally at home. Last night’s dinner was squid & octopus which tasted so good!
If I come here again I really want to try surfing. I pondered it this week but having never done it before I wasn’t sure if my ankle was up to it yet. I went in the Pacific once. Wish I would have done that a little more but the beach sand here is very hot & coarse (yeah the beach at home has me spoiled 😂) so I stayed by the pool. Which was on the beach anyway so it was nice to hear the waves.
I have to admit I’m feeling pretty good in general. I’m not feeling any anxiety or need to get back home. I really do think it’s cause I’m with my friends who I’m used to being around. My FL brother has been great & his gf had her bday yesterday so we celebrated that! They get me & I’m very comfortable around them. The other couple I don’t know as well but had a good time with them. I do miss having my own bathroom though. Haha!!
Looking forward to work tomorrow & this weekend I have a few fun activities already planned so I’m definitely busy. BUT I’m going to be aware of not overbooking myself & getting run down like I did after the cruise. No relapses for this girl!!