I know it’s much colder elsewhere & I’m not complaining, but this weather isn’t what I signed up for when I moved to FL. WTF 30’s??? Really??? Of course my friends up north give me a hard time (I can’t even imagine what they’re going thru!), but what they don’t realize is the damage the cold does down here. You like that orange juice? Be prepared to pay a lot more. Heck the iguanas are falling out of the trees cause they are cold & not functioning well!
So happy to have made it to Friday! I went back to work Tuesday which was fine. With time off during the holidays & coworkers on vacation it’s been a little crazy, but it stayed handled. My supervisor came back Wednesday & right away she starts sniping at me about things. Some people are just so unhappy with life. Little does she know I was approached at a holiday party about a job which I had sort of considered (there’s some other issues here as well). Well I decided it was worth at least hearing what they had to say so Thursday I had off for doctor appointments & I also did an impromptu interview/meeting with that company. We had a nice discussion (I met with the owner & CEO) and they are going to put together a package to offer me. As ticked as I am (and have been getting), I know better than to just quit my job. But I didn’t move 1300 miles away from everything I knew to be miserable & I still follow that mantra even though it’s been over 4 years. Being honest I have been stressed/unhappy for the last 6 months & I think I know deep down something is gonna have to change. Unfortunately I really like what I do for my job, I just no longer care for the people around me (their shitty attitudes are soul sucking). So from what I see I can departments where I am if an opening is available (and if I can get hired–another big process), the unhappy people leave or I leave. I know one of them is due to retire this summer so maybe I can wait it out & hope things change for the better? I do have some very sweet perks at my current job (vacation time, heath benefits, hours, security) that I would definitely have to be compensated for financially to give up. So we’ll see what they have to offer….
Tonight is the start of kickball playoffs! Except we don’t play until 9pm so we are going to freeze. lol I get to see Brian (yup, he’s been texting me everyday going on 3 weeks now) assuming he sticks around after his game. I’ll be a little curious cause I haven’t seen him in person in almost 2 weeks. Wonder how he will act? I will also see that side chick that was so informative about him (she plays on another team) so this could be fun. She came to our NYE party & made out with like 3 different guys. None were the guys she came with (I assume she used him to attend cause we weren’t inviting her) & 1 guy was in fact my friend who came cause his GF (who I am also friends with) was working that night. Yup, that guy bolted as soon as I walked around the corner & caught that going on (I said nothing & walked right by). I told my roommate after that she needed to get the fuck out cause she was going to cause a fight with all these drunk guys. I mean what kind of skanky ho are you that every 20 minutes you are changing guys & approaching all of them at the party? I saved one of the guys by grabbing his hand when she came up so she quickly apologized to me (let her assume we were together) & moved on. Ick…just ick.
It’s been a crazy few months. So crazy I haven’t been able to do much updating here. And some funny shit has happened that I’m sure would have been entertaining for you all.
Let’s see…Irma passed by. I had little damage at my house. Just a few screens needed replacing & that was it. The renters said they didn’t have power for about a week so they were in a shelter for a few days & then a hotel. Things had been going well at the house for a few months except the last few weeks of course. Something is wrong with the plumbing/pipes. Had the septic emptied, but didn’t resolve the issue. Now need a plumber to come fish the line cause something is clogged down the toilet. I’m really hoping the renters dropped something down the toilet that got stuck & it’s not roots or something bad with a broken pipe. We’ll see….
Work has been nuts. When I went back after Irma (had about a week off) people were off the wall batshit. I get there was a lot of stress & freaking out, but come on. Be a little professional. It was so bad in fact that I went home after the first day & restarted on my meds that I had stopped in February. I had been completely fine the entire hurricane yet going back to work in that environment had me literally an anxious mess in hours. So I bit the bullet & started back so within a few days I felt “normal” again. I felt like such a failure though I told my very close friends & therapist. It was hard for me to admit I was losing control again, but it was the best decision cause I could feel things starting to spiral. Except instead of throwing up I was eating like a starved fat kid at the buffet so I have packed on quite a bit weight. At this point I am 30 pounds heavier than I was a year ago (more on that later).
About mid-September I met a guy named Andy who I later renamed Fuckboy. I had a feeling about him being a bit of one, but my friends were really pushing for me to give him a chance & be open minded. After several weeks of him being up my ass everyday texting (yeah that was a sign so I kept my walls up) & hanging out a few times, I run into him at a bar on a Saturday night. With some other lady. The night after he cancels a date with me last minute cause of some emergency. Of course my friends bless their hearts jump into support mode–she’s not pretty, she looks so old, etc–but I’m not going to bash her. She’s irrelevant to me. I decide wtf do I have to lose & rather than just always wonder…I walk up to him on 1 side & sweetly say “hey what’s up?”. I have never seen somebody squirm & refuse eye contact & look so uncomfortable. hahaha!!! He stammers out a few things & actually has the balls to introduce me to whoever she is (I made sure to clearly say my name & shake her hand & smile big) before I turned my attention back on him. I remained calm & spoke quietly so I can’t be accused of acting crazy (we know how men LOVE to say that!!). I was like “what is going on?” to which he stated she’s his ex-gf who he thinks they are getting back together. Really after everything you said about her? He cringed & whether she heard me or not I don’t care. I said so the whole date the night before was fake & he never intended to follow thru. Oh no he assures me it wasn’t. Really?? Then riddle me Fuckboy how you are going on a date with me Friday night & getting back with her on Saturday? I should have leaned around him & let her know that was his plan. hahaha! Instead I said oh ok so you just did to me what you said you hate people doing to you–not being over their ex & wasting your time. Oh no he keeps saying. I just calmly kept repeating yes you did before he finally relented & says well yeah I guess so, I’m sorry. I said hey, best of luck then & walked away. Of course after that I was done with him & moved on with my night, but he kept staring at my group so my friends took turns waving. I was like whatever Fuckboy. I have no time for lies & BS in my life. I am glad I approached him & called him out rather than be left wondering wtf.
So that wraps up September & into October for me. I’ll get more caught up this week!
So the past few weekends due to rain & not getting off my lazy butt I’ve been watching a lot of mindless daytime tv. And the show Catfish on MTV is playing a lot of reruns. The premise is pretty simple…people meet online, develop relationships without meeting, the TV show has them meet in real life & sometimes they aren’t always who they claim to be. Shocker! Crazy! Imagine that?!?!?! lol
Anyways…it got me thinking. Is Will catfishing me? The last time I heard from him was Monday of this week. The week before he talked to me on Tuesday, said he had to stay in Portland for another week for work, the trip then to STL got delayed a week, then he’d be back in FL, etc… Apparently his work was having some issues, trying to get caught up & restructuring with new employees & lost employees. Thursday he texts me there was a company meeting & changes within were being made. He’ll be doing less travel for on-site training, but he still has the FL & Portland accounts active so he’d be back in FL more plus a few other things. He seemed fairly confident & in my mind I was like well ok we’ll see when he gets back here how things play out between us when we actually get to date.
Fast forward to this past Monday afternoon when I get a text he lost his job. I responded after the gym with a sorry (what do you say? I mean it really sucks) & he called me right away. He was back in STL & the company had a meeting that morning where they let him go (basically he cost too much with travel, etc… so again in my eyes understandable). He claimed to already have a few leads & things set up cause he’d been sort of looking the past month. But who knows where he’ll end up location wise? I didn’t ask cause it’s none of my business I feel. Do what you have to do. He did mention a city in FL, but I didn’t respond & he didn’t further it. And I haven’t heard from him since.
But I am starting to wonder…was he even really being real? Is the ex-wife REALLY an EX?? When I asked he said yes he was divorced, but there were a few flags there that popped up. He never did get settled in down here so it’s not like he has to come back for anything. Was he really ever going to move here? He had no housing or belongings down here. His work paid for hotel & travel when he was here to do training & then poof…he’d pack up his bag & off to the other city. I always kind of wondered if I was just a side attraction for when he was down here? It was just this weird feeling I couldn’t shake. Not to mention it would be days (like 4-6) before I’d hear from him & then he’d pop up again.
Where things start to really not add up for me…the phone number he gave me he at one time he said was a work phone. I did notice he carried 2 phones once (he claimed that one was for his kids) & it seemed a little shady, but I never saw a 2nd phone again. If you lost your job in the afternoon & got your stuff/left the office, how are you calling me from the work cell number later on? Strange right cause wouldn’t work keep all their property?? So did you really lose your job or is that a rouse to explain why you won’t be back in FL? Also his name. When we met on Tinder (oh yes cause everything on there is TOTALLY legit lol) his name was William. When we met the 2nd time he said he went by Will & it was actually his middle name cause he didn’t like Michael growing up. But whenever he’d refer to himself in 3rd person he wouldn’t call himself Will. For example he’d say “the guys at work said oh Mike blah blah” or “I said to myself hey Mike blah blah”. Weird right??? I did tease him about which first name would he like to be called, but I never did really call him out on the name part when I caught the inconsistencies. Shame on me. And then there was his last name. He changed it when he was in his early 20’s to his real father’s last name (he didn’t meet his dad until then either). Now for a guy that does IT & all that technology type stuff & being 36 yo which is prime age for Facebook…he was fairly hard to google. I found nothing. The phone number didn’t hit anything. The names even when I tried a bunch of combos didn’t either. Another weird flag. And I’ll admit I am a pretty good stalker!
So just all those flags & inconsistencies & watching too much Catfish lately has me wondering….have I been catfished??? Was this all some guy just bored on the road inventing stories to entertain himself while away from his family & home?? Or even just a guy at home bored with life & needing a fake reality to escape to??
😵😵😵 yeah that’s not really something one needs to see at 7:20 am!
Little backstory…so this guy contacts me thru Facebook messenger awhile ago cause he had been following my Instagram. Apparently he’s interested in me so we chat a little but he’s much younger than me (like 10 years) so I say I’m not interested. But he seemed like an ok guy & I know a few single ladies his age so then I’m thinking maybe I’ll meet him to match them up? A good deed right? He makes some odd douchebag comments then & game over I’m out. He claims it’s a misunderstanding cause he’s English and the meaning of things or the way he phrases things. No I understood fine. Douchebag is a universal language & I’m not introducing you to any of my girls. Since then he’ll randomly send me FB messages which I just delete. Until this morning.
In all honesty I answered his message with the intent of saying I’m not interested and please stop contacting me, but he immediately started on with how he still wants to meet me yet he feels that I’m seeing someone. I was driving to work so I couldn’t respond but in my head I’m getting ticked like wtf crazy creeper and start composing my mental message of telling him to go fly a kite for when I can reply. BUT before I can even get that far here it comes. The unsolicited out of no where dick pic. WTF 😱 Why would anyone send a picture of their junk (or maybe it’s not his but still the intent is there) to somebody they don’t know & want to go out with?!?!?! I didn’t think guys really did that but apparently I was wrong! WHY??? I can’t get past that part. He then wanted my opinion so here was my response:He wasn’t happy that I wasn’t impressed & begging for more I guess cause he had a few more comments. But that was my final response. If he contacts me again I’ll have to figure out how to block. Seriously. What a frigging weirdo creeper!!!
Don’t get me wrong. If you are in a relationship with somebody and it’s mutual there is nothing wrong with sending some fun sexy photos. Whatever works right?! But if you’re going to send a girl you want to meet in person pictures, please let it be something cute. A kitten. 😺 The sunset. ⛅️ A palm tree. 🌴 NOT YOUR DICK. That is NOT cute.
And all my coworkers agree with me. Thanks for making our morning though. 😂