Ugh…I am afraid that’s what I am now considering doing.
catch up time: last Xmas holidays my good friend Jess got engaged. Yay for her! In January she asks me to be a “co” maid of honor with her other good friend. The rest of the bridal party is the 2 wives & a fiancée of the future groom’s brothers. At the time I told her I was happy for her & didn’t need such a role, but she insisted on the co-MOH thing. I spoke with the other “co” & we get along, on the same page, etc… so I think welllll perhaps this will work out ok. Jess picks the 1st Saturday of December as her wedding day & off the planning starts. She claims it won’t be a big thing, country theme setting at a barn they are renting, we get to pick our own dresses in the color she decided. I make hotel reservations for myself (places are limited in that area), find a dress she approves of ($123 so not too bad plus I can wear it again) & also cowboy boots that meet approval ($190 which I am not super thrilled about as I only might wear them again). Straight up I will tell you I do NOT like the country theme dress with boots look for me personally but hey it’s my friend so I keep my mouth shut. We go wedding dress shopping in February (just Jess & us 2 co-MOHs) & she purchases one. Venue is booked. Photographer done. Starting to figure out catering. Things are progressing nicely in March.
Early April things took a dead halt when she sends me a picture of a positive pregnancy test. WTF is what I want to say, but I don’t. She had already shared with me at the start of all this she was hoping to be a month pregnant when she walked down the aisle. That should have been my RED FLAG then! I mean how do you time that to work out?? And why the baby hurry you ask? Oh cause she was turning 39 & the hubby to be was 26 so she wanted him to have a kid of course. Granted she already has a child from another guy, but I guess that doesn’t really count?? I see her in mid-April when we go to a concert, but the baby is still a secret & people don’t know the wedding has now been put on hold. Oh the secrets a co-MOH gets to keep.
Well in early May they finally bust out the news that the wedding is on hold due to the possibility of the bambino arriving the week after the wedding. Jess actually has the nerve to ask me what dates work in the spring of 2020 “since you’re so busy”. Oh hell no you didn’t say that!?!? I gave her the fall of 2019 for wedding events & early December for her wedding. I had already started planning other things for 2020. I can’t help it you used no protection cause you thought your eggs were old & ended up knocked up faster than you planned! I said nooo you pick a date. New date – May 2, 2020. Super, I had nothing scheduled. I rebook hotels which are now double the cost for whatever reason. But hey it’s just money right?
Fast forward to end of September. I have not seen her since mid-April. All wedding plans have stopped cause it’s baby time now. The wedding isn’t even mentioned. We text every couple week basic how are you, blah blah. I eventually gave up inviting her to things or trying to do stuff together as she was always with her future in-laws. I get an invite in the mail about 2 weeks before her baby shower. Seriously? She never even mentioned it to me (but had talked to the other co-MOH about it). Apparently the future in-laws are throwing her a party. I go only to see the other co-MOH to catch up who turns out has been cast aside just as much as I have.
Now it’s mid-November. When I was flying to Vegas I get pictures of a newborn. Apparently Jess had the baby! Like 3-4 weeks early, but he still came out 7 lbs something & everything was ok so I am relieved to hear that (she was very concerned given her age the baby having problems). Again I am happy for her cause she’s getting everything she wanted.
And here we are now early December. I get a text from the co-MOH this week asking if I heard from anyone about Jess’s bachelorette party? Nope. Turns out the other bridesmaids (& Jess I assume as well) want to go to Nashville for it. Really?? Keep in mind we live in Florida so this isn’t some little road trip. She said when she went to hospital to see the baby is when Jess shared this information. Yup, that was a few weeks ago & not a peep has been mentioned to me. Nice.
So that now leaves me here saying why the fuck am I still in this wedding??
Don’t get me wrong. I am very happy for Jess! She is getting everything she hoped for & wanted. But let’s be honest…our friendship in the last year has really shifted. It was even starting before the engagement happened. I understand this happens so I am not upset & accept it for what it is. Friendships go thru cycles based on where you are in life. Having my own babies isn’t my world, but I love my friends kids. Plus Jess has always known me to be single. Maybe dating a guy for a few weeks, but nothing serious. She doesn’t even have a clue about Ken or that we’ve been together for over 6 months. I mean what does that say about our friendship?? I haven’t cared to share cause now it’s like how do you bring that up & she hasn’t asked about my dating life.
From another standpoint is I think the Nashville trip is my final straw. I don’t need to spend money because it’s my friend. That’s great if her future in-laws want to go all out & be crazy but really it wasn’t how things were planned originally. What happened to small low key? I guarantee if the wedding hadn’t be delayed there is no way this fall we would have been having a destination bachelorette party. Also, this isn’t her first rodeo. She been married (not the dad of baby #1 either). I didn’t know her then, but quite a nice wedding from what I understand. The whole deal. So she’s done the bachelorette & showers & blah blah. I now see why her parents were lukewarm about all this from the get go. They have done it. And now you’ve got the baby here before the wedding anyways so why are we keeping anything traditional at this point?
I guess that last part isn’t so much aimed at Jess, but me getting more cynical of people & their 2nd, 3rd, even 4th weddings that are giant parties & blow outs. Do we just get married every 5 years so we can have a party & get gifts? At a certain point it’s ridiculous to keep expecting your family & friends to keep paying for it again. I know the excuse will be well it’s the groom’s first go round. Well I am sorry but he knew going in you already had done all this so this shouldn’t be news to him.
OMG. I know this was crazy long, but I have been keeping it all bottled in cause I have no one to share it with. Poor Ken listens to some of it when I am like “holy crap guess what”, but he’s a guy who thinks it’s all a waste. lol It feels good to just get it all out of my head!
now back to the topic: has anyone backed out of a bridal party? How did it go? Like a sinking ship in a ball of fire? Did you still go to the wedding a guest? I feel like when she brings up the bachelorette party will be when I need to let her know.
I don’t want her to not go to Nashville (or anywhere else) if that’s what she wants now, but straight up it’s not the bachelorette party I (or the other “co”) had envisioned. Plus I know a lot of local people wouldn’t be able to go so does that mean we’d have another party back here in Florida? And the showers? When does it end? It all just starts to add up fast!!! I am not in a position to afford all this for myself not to mention I am sure we’d be taking on her costs too. And we haven’t even gotten to the actual wedding yet…dress alteration, hair, nails, makeup, hotel, etc… Plus the time commitment. I am starting to realize “we” the bridal party are being stuck with the set up & clean up of the wedding at this rented facility (more added hotel costs for me stay out there). Yeah no thanks. You want to rent a barn in nowhere that has nothing then you can pay or figure out the set-up without turning your friends into servants. I am glad her 3 future in-laws are so involved in all this decision making as they can just go ahead with it now how they want since they have taken over it seems.