Whew…this has been a week! People be crazy I tell you. Work brought a lot of that. One lady came in several days this week yelling discrimination, threatening to sue & causing a scene among several departments. Next was the ever so polite gentleman who left a post it on the front wall that said “BITCH” with an arrow pointing at the front counter. Really…how old are we? And if you have an issue with staff, then speak to our supervisor. Oh wait, she’s a woman too so you probably hate her as well.
I completed my 1st 10K last Saturday!! I was super excited to finish so well (1:20 was my official time). I had planned on just walking, but ended up running probably close to 2.5 miles. I still finished feeling pretty good so I am on track for the more important 10K the end of April now! I have been really good the last month about getting in my steps & being more active.
My mom came down to visit last weekend. We went over to Disney on Sunday for the Flower & Garden festival. It was a good day just strolling around finding all the topiaries & chilling out. Some good people watching too. lol We do laugh a lot I have to say! My dad’s knee replacement last month went well & his recovery is coming along. I am hoping he’ll come visit soon too.
Kickball playoffs on Wednesday started this week & people decide not to show up. WTF? You can’t use subs so we had to play shorthanded, but amazingly those of us that came gelled together really well & pulled off a win. I was surprised honestly. I think next week the 1st game is going to end our season regardless who comes to play…the other team is very solid. But we had a good time! We are trying to field our team for next season & replace players which is a little more daunting than I had anticipated. Obviously as we lose original players, I want to replace them with better players so I am being selective in who I ask. I’m really looking forward to kickball tonight! It’s gotten to be a really fun bunch of people who play & we have a good time.
So here’s a funny…one of the guys from Wednesday kickball asked me out for drinks after the games. What’s interesting is I have known him from our Friday night league for awhile, but we never spoke or talked there. I had fun…played some pool, hung out with other players, talked a little. It was very low key…in fact so much that afterwards I was like hmmm what was that?? I like him, but I need to see where he’s headed with this. I am done making the first moves! I think I just also suck at dating. It’s such a gray area thing it seems & I have become a more black & white person.
Not sure what the game plan is for this weekend yet. Tomorrow I would like to get a bridge walk in (I have been doing that the last few Tuesdays since I stopped cornhole), but my feet are hurting today. I had to visit the foot doctor yesterday & he did some work on my nails. UGH! I know in a few days it will be fine, but right now it hurts! I wouldn’t mind a little beach time, but perhaps sand isn’t a good combo for the toes right now. I have been at the beach every weekend lately so I am getting my sunshine fix for sure. Sunday I have been hearing will be crappy weather so stuck inside. Maybe a movie?
March is arriving like a lion. RAAWWRRR!!!
Life is going well. I am almost scared to say that though. My new year resolutions of ignoring unhappy people & getting rid of time wasters is working out super. I have been hanging around positive people & focusing on my needs. I am actually done playing cornhole for now which is a little weird after 4 years every week, but it was time to try some new stuff. You would think it would free up 2 of my evenings, but it really doesn’t cause I am trying to get ready for upcoming 10Ks so I am putting in more time walking. I do get home earlier though which is a nice trade off.
I am playing in 2 kickball leagues which is fun! The Wednesday night crew is fun & we actually have hung out outside of kickball so meeting more people is great. We are getting ready to end the season, but most of us will be returning next season. Friday night kickball just started & will be a good time. The bonus part–Joe the creeper couldn’t fill his team so they aren’t playing this season! And since I am not playing Tuesday cornhole right now that means I NO LONGER HAVE TO SEE HIM!!!! Isn’t that amazing??? That’s how it frigging should have been 2 years ago!!! Life is so good. lol
Work has been ok. It is more enjoyable since I am doing just my job duties. I feel less stress & am much more caught up. An opening in another department did come up in February & yesterday I applied. I don’t know where it will go or if anything will even come of it, but at least I did it! The job closes on March 9th so it will be a bit before I hear anything either way.
My diet is good–I hit 12 pounds lost this morning! I have been sticking to my food plan except for the alcohol (lol I know). I might try to decrease it a little more to like 1000 calories a day & see what happens. Just under 4 weeks left in the gym challenge so I am motivated! I feel stronger & have really been putting in effort at the gym. A few people who haven’t seen me lately said my shape is changing & I am looking thinner so there is some progress! I was pleased last month also to become a Just Strong ambassador. They are a fitness clothing company in the UK that promotes & encourages women. So not only is it fun clothes to wear around, but I love the message of girl power being spread! If you decide you want to order I can give my discount code! http://www.juststrongclothing.com
So all in all I LOVE that March is roaring in!!! Feel the power! Know your value! 💙💚💛🧡❤️
I decided January was pretty much just me getting ready for 2018 to start February 1st. So I’m a little delayed 🤷🏼♀️ Being sick wiped me out for several weeks and I finally started feeling better last week. But it gave me time to think and decide on a plan of attack moving forward.
My diet has to change. The weight has to go. 40 is coming & I refuse to start it like this! In January I upped my gym member ship to 3 days a week which was a good start, but my food intake is wildly out of control. 😭 So starting this week I am having pre-made meals delivered to home. The fat kid can’t be in charge cause obviously I have no control! I’m on day 3 of reduced calories and better eating…no one has died. Honestly though I feel better. And I’m not hungry. Amazing what properly planned meals can do and it makes it very simple which is also nice.
The Wednesday night kickball is going well. The team I was put on is really fun & we have a good time playing. It’s nice to meet a whole new set of people. The cornhole on Tuesday ended with us winning the finals!!! And we eliminated Joe on the way to the end which was an added bonus to the night. YAY!! 😝🏆 Not sure if we’ll play next season & have a month off so in the mean time I’m attending track workouts with my gym group on Tuesday nights. Gotta get those steps in!
Work is going ok. I’ve had some duties taken from me recently which I got upset about originally, but upon further thought it was stuff that wasn’t my job to do & now I’m freed up to do my actual job. It’s really improved the stress level for me having things simplified. Now my coworker is freaking out with all the added duties she has but hey…it wasn’t my choice. Hearing how cranky or unhappy she is makes me realize how bad I probably sounded. Glad it’s not me anymore!
Mom was just down here to celebrate her birthday. We went to Disney for a few days & had a really good time! Did the Aloha dinner and also did a tour at Magic Kingdom (take the Keys to the Kingdom tour–amazing!!). Our relationship has really improved. I’m hoping my parents will be back to visit again in the next few months. Dad is having knee replacement next week 🤞
It’s been a busy week so I’m looking forward to the weekend!
Unfortunately I came down with the plague that is going around last week. I would like to thank all the asshole customers who came into our work sick & coughing on us thinking it was funny. Really it’s not. I made it to work Friday morning to do our 1st (un)organized walk before work, but then I left shortly after. Most of my department got wiped out as well & called in sick.
Saturday I had plans with friends I’ve been waiting 2 weeks for so I was determined to feel better. I medicated myself (I actually did feel better too) & off we went for the day. But it was too much cause that night I got back in bed & didn’t leave it for 2 days. I haven’t been sick like throwing up (that would be a good sick to have!), but just head cold & sinus & no energy. Others have it much worse. I’ve heard it can take some weeks to fully recover, but I am trying to keep myself somewhat on schedule. Too much time off & I fear I will never catch up! Monday was a holiday from work, but a total waste since I spent it in bed.
Tuesday I went to work, but only half our department showed up so we were all moving pretty slow. lol After work I stopped by the gym & spent my “class” just walking on the treadmill. Luckily my trainer was really cool about my lack of participation. lol I wanted to do something, but no way did I have any energy to really work out! I do need to start getting ready for my upcoming 10K (March 3rd!) even if I am just walking so I have to get more steps in. I then had cornhole which was pretty good overall. We won the 1st game & then had to play Joe’s team. Which we started out losing, but then won the next 2 rounds so YAY US!!! Not gonna lie–whooping on him a little did make me feel better. hahaha!! Next week is the playoffs & then I’m not sure what’s happening. I don’t know if my partner will want to play another season although I have had a good time playing with her.
Today is going pretty well. Feeling a bit better than yesterday so continuing on the upswing. I have my 1st kickball game with the new team tonight, but not until 9:30!! EEK! And the temps are supposed to drop into the 30’s tonight so I am going to freeze! lol Time to find all the layers I had on a few weeks ago.
Two of my New Year resolutions (actually they should just be all the time reminders) is not to let unhappy people bring me down & get rid of the time wasters. I have to draw a line & not allow these types of people in my life or to ruin it. It’s hard to sometimes spot them cause they put on a good front so you’re fooled or unfortunately over time they morph into one of those people so you have to cut them loose.
Time wasters. Nothing pisses me off more than these people! If I lose money, I can always work more to make more. If something breaks, I can go buy another. You get the idea. Now I will probably be ticked about it, but it’s a “fixable” thing. But to waste my time that I can’t ever get back? Oh hell no!! I am learning to value myself & know what I am worth…and I am worth a whole lot more than people wasting my time! It turns out that Brian was a giant time waster. And when I called him out on Friday night about it he probably didn’t like hearing that very much. After texting me daily for 3 weeks straight & then hanging out with me at kickball Friday (like followed my team around & not his afterwards) & then coming out to the bar again with me, he’s all “are you coming to my house to snuggle” when we’re leaving. So I simply asked where this was going? Oh how fast he pedaled!! He has to focus on his career & new job. He doesn’t have time for a relationship. Blah blah blah. It’s the same old shit we all have heard. I said well I heard that all from his other chick so I didn’t know what was true/real which he tried to brush off being with her, but I said no really I am better than that. Which he agreed (I love how they do acknowledge it at least). He then says well I’m going to keep bugging you so I replied with yeah I don’t need any more bros so I am good. And I just held my ground staring right back at him. I’m not going to cave to a time waster once I see them for what they are! So he called me “such a pain in the ass” I am sure trying to be funny but my humor was gone. I nicely said “no I am irresistible**…(pause)…but by the time you realize it it will be too late” and started walking to my car. He yells text me when you get home (which I strongly resisted giving him the finger over my shoulder) & instead I said “good bye Brian”. He did send me a text on the way home which I didn’t answer & I haven’t heard from him since. Too dah loo MF!
** SIDE NOTE –now I do not believe myself to be “irresistible” or anything like that but in my somewhat intoxicated state I was going for another word (irreplaceable?) & unfortunately that was what popped out of my mouth so I just went with it. No way was I going to fumble on words in my moment with this dumbass!
Unhappy people. We all know them. We try to avoid them. Unfortunately when it’s at work & people in charge of me, I can’t ignore or cut them off (which would be my normal response). I received the job offer on Monday from the meeting/interview last week. Unfortunately it just isn’t feasible for me to accept it. When I actually lined up on paper what both companies have to offer me…I would be losing on every level at the new employer. Pay, hours, insurance, time off, retirement. So I was a little bummed to realize it’s not the right opportunity for me right now, but it also made me realize I really do have a good job that offers me a lot & I actually enjoy what I do for work. It’s just the unhappy people around me. So I need to learn how to work with that & not let it affect me. I will just be the happiest me I can be & if others want to be unhappy then let them. I don’t want to live that way…I have way too many good things going on! Focus more on my job (we are super busy) & let the side things go. In the last few days there have also been some big changes in other departments which could affect our department (people leaving, changing positions, etc…) so perhaps there will be some staff changes. I can wait a few months & see how it plays out.
My coworker & I are starting up a Friday morning before work walk for anybody that wants to join. Just an easy stroll to get the day started. We are getting some positive feedback & hopefully since I am now accountable I’ll get some more steps in (training for my upcoming 10Ks hasn’t been happening). I was also asked to join a Wednesday night kickball league cause they need more girls for a team. I don’t know anybody there (that I’m aware of at least) so this hopefully is a great opportunity for me to meet a bunch more new people. 18 teams with 10 people each is a whole lot of new people! My Friday night kickball season has ended (we got an early elimination last week thanks to all of us playing like crap) so I have over a month of free Fridays now! And this month I upped my gym member ship to 3 visits a week. I really need to lose weight. I am at the heaviest I have been in years & I know it’s from the unhappiness of the last 6 months. So lots of changes happening & change is exciting sometimes!!
I know it’s much colder elsewhere & I’m not complaining, but this weather isn’t what I signed up for when I moved to FL. WTF 30’s??? Really??? Of course my friends up north give me a hard time (I can’t even imagine what they’re going thru!), but what they don’t realize is the damage the cold does down here. You like that orange juice? Be prepared to pay a lot more. Heck the iguanas are falling out of the trees cause they are cold & not functioning well!
So happy to have made it to Friday! I went back to work Tuesday which was fine. With time off during the holidays & coworkers on vacation it’s been a little crazy, but it stayed handled. My supervisor came back Wednesday & right away she starts sniping at me about things. Some people are just so unhappy with life. Little does she know I was approached at a holiday party about a job which I had sort of considered (there’s some other issues here as well). Well I decided it was worth at least hearing what they had to say so Thursday I had off for doctor appointments & I also did an impromptu interview/meeting with that company. We had a nice discussion (I met with the owner & CEO) and they are going to put together a package to offer me. As ticked as I am (and have been getting), I know better than to just quit my job. But I didn’t move 1300 miles away from everything I knew to be miserable & I still follow that mantra even though it’s been over 4 years. Being honest I have been stressed/unhappy for the last 6 months & I think I know deep down something is gonna have to change. Unfortunately I really like what I do for my job, I just no longer care for the people around me (their shitty attitudes are soul sucking). So from what I see I can departments where I am if an opening is available (and if I can get hired–another big process), the unhappy people leave or I leave. I know one of them is due to retire this summer so maybe I can wait it out & hope things change for the better? I do have some very sweet perks at my current job (vacation time, heath benefits, hours, security) that I would definitely have to be compensated for financially to give up. So we’ll see what they have to offer….
Tonight is the start of kickball playoffs! Except we don’t play until 9pm so we are going to freeze. lol I get to see Brian (yup, he’s been texting me everyday going on 3 weeks now) assuming he sticks around after his game. I’ll be a little curious cause I haven’t seen him in person in almost 2 weeks. Wonder how he will act? I will also see that side chick that was so informative about him (she plays on another team) so this could be fun. She came to our NYE party & made out with like 3 different guys. None were the guys she came with (I assume she used him to attend cause we weren’t inviting her) & 1 guy was in fact my friend who came cause his GF (who I am also friends with) was working that night. Yup, that guy bolted as soon as I walked around the corner & caught that going on (I said nothing & walked right by). I told my roommate after that she needed to get the fuck out cause she was going to cause a fight with all these drunk guys. I mean what kind of skanky ho are you that every 20 minutes you are changing guys & approaching all of them at the party? I saved one of the guys by grabbing his hand when she came up so she quickly apologized to me (let her assume we were together) & moved on. Ick…just ick.
It’s been a crazy few months. So crazy I haven’t been able to do much updating here. And some funny shit has happened that I’m sure would have been entertaining for you all.
Let’s see…Irma passed by. I had little damage at my house. Just a few screens needed replacing & that was it. The renters said they didn’t have power for about a week so they were in a shelter for a few days & then a hotel. Things had been going well at the house for a few months except the last few weeks of course. Something is wrong with the plumbing/pipes. Had the septic emptied, but didn’t resolve the issue. Now need a plumber to come fish the line cause something is clogged down the toilet. I’m really hoping the renters dropped something down the toilet that got stuck & it’s not roots or something bad with a broken pipe. We’ll see….
Work has been nuts. When I went back after Irma (had about a week off) people were off the wall batshit. I get there was a lot of stress & freaking out, but come on. Be a little professional. It was so bad in fact that I went home after the first day & restarted on my meds that I had stopped in February. I had been completely fine the entire hurricane yet going back to work in that environment had me literally an anxious mess in hours. So I bit the bullet & started back so within a few days I felt “normal” again. I felt like such a failure though I told my very close friends & therapist. It was hard for me to admit I was losing control again, but it was the best decision cause I could feel things starting to spiral. Except instead of throwing up I was eating like a starved fat kid at the buffet so I have packed on quite a bit weight. At this point I am 30 pounds heavier than I was a year ago (more on that later).
About mid-September I met a guy named Andy who I later renamed Fuckboy. I had a feeling about him being a bit of one, but my friends were really pushing for me to give him a chance & be open minded. After several weeks of him being up my ass everyday texting (yeah that was a sign so I kept my walls up) & hanging out a few times, I run into him at a bar on a Saturday night. With some other lady. The night after he cancels a date with me last minute cause of some emergency. Of course my friends bless their hearts jump into support mode–she’s not pretty, she looks so old, etc–but I’m not going to bash her. She’s irrelevant to me. I decide wtf do I have to lose & rather than just always wonder…I walk up to him on 1 side & sweetly say “hey what’s up?”. I have never seen somebody squirm & refuse eye contact & look so uncomfortable. hahaha!!! He stammers out a few things & actually has the balls to introduce me to whoever she is (I made sure to clearly say my name & shake her hand & smile big) before I turned my attention back on him. I remained calm & spoke quietly so I can’t be accused of acting crazy (we know how men LOVE to say that!!). I was like “what is going on?” to which he stated she’s his ex-gf who he thinks they are getting back together. Really after everything you said about her? He cringed & whether she heard me or not I don’t care. I said so the whole date the night before was fake & he never intended to follow thru. Oh no he assures me it wasn’t. Really?? Then riddle me Fuckboy how you are going on a date with me Friday night & getting back with her on Saturday? I should have leaned around him & let her know that was his plan. hahaha! Instead I said oh ok so you just did to me what you said you hate people doing to you–not being over their ex & wasting your time. Oh no he keeps saying. I just calmly kept repeating yes you did before he finally relented & says well yeah I guess so, I’m sorry. I said hey, best of luck then & walked away. Of course after that I was done with him & moved on with my night, but he kept staring at my group so my friends took turns waving. I was like whatever Fuckboy. I have no time for lies & BS in my life. I am glad I approached him & called him out rather than be left wondering wtf.
So that wraps up September & into October for me. I’ll get more caught up this week!